I'm so sorry. I know I'm cruel
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TW: Suicide Attempt
It's the one year anniversary of your death and everyone is doing fine. Yes you cross their mind everyday and it hurts them but they know that your in a better place and that you're no longer in pain.
Tony in the other hand is still coping. Yes he's doing better than he first was but he still sleeps in your room. He still cuddles your pillow and snuggles under your blankets. He knows your gone and he accepts that. He knows you're in a better place and that you're no longer in pain. He just wishes he could no longer be in pain as well. He wants to join you.
Before he retreated into your room he said goodbye and goodnight to everyone. Everyone just stared at him and nodded and only Steve and Banner said goodnight back to him. He knows they all hated him because he's the main reason why you killed your self. But it's ok. It'll all be over soon and he'll join you. This time he'll give you nothing but love and all the attention you deserve.
He entered your room and grabbed the gun. He inserted the one bullet into the gun. He took off the safety and laid down on your bed with the gun in his hand.
"I'm so sorry baby. I know I should keep on living for you but I can't handle it anymore baby. I miss you so much babygirl/boy. I want to be by your side." He said.
He just laid there crying and staring at the ceiling. He was trying to have to guts to pull the trigger. An hour later of crying he passed out and was asleep. The gun was still in his hand but it wasn't pointing to his head.
He dreamt of you. He saw your beautiful self dressed in all white with a really bright light behind you. He walked towards you.
"Baby" he cried
"Dad!" You exclaimed
"I miss you so so much. I'm so sorry!" He cried.
You embraced him in a really tight hug. He smelled your sent and he felt your warmth. This felt so real.
"I miss you too dad. And I forgive you. I'm so sorry for what I did. I just want you to forgive yourself because you really need too Dad" You said.
"I can't forgive myself. It's all my fault. You took your own life because of me baby. But don't worry. I'll be joining you soon. I'll be with you again and I'll give you all the love I should've given you when you were alive. You're my everything baby and I'm sorry I never showed you that." He said.
"It's ok dad and I now know that you were the one who would go into my room at night and make me feel safe and I now know you'd have Jarvis inform you whenever I had a nightmare and you'd come running into my room and be there with me. Thank you daddy. I love you. And please don't do anything dumb daddy. I know you want to join me but it is not your time. I will always be there with you. I will always be watching over you and keeping you safe. You will feel my presence dad. I know you will. But please don't end your life. It's not your time dad. I love you." You said.
You squeezed him one last time and you let the bright light engulf you and tony woke up.
He cried so hard and he grabbed the gun and wanted to point it to his head but he couldn't. He really wanted to but he physically couldn't. His hand was shaking and it was as if something was holding him back. He eventually lost grip of the gun and it fell off the bed and it went off.
All the avengers woke up and ran into your room expecting another tragedy. Their hearts sank when they saw Tony bawling his eyes out and the gun on the floor. Steve walked over to him and he hugged Tony. Clint grabbed the gun and put it in a hiding place. Everyone sat on the bed and just comforted Tony.
"I-I saw her again. She looked so beautiful dressed in all white. The light was so bright and blinding but it brought out all her beautiful features and she looked so peaceful. She told me not to do it. She saved me Steve. She saved me." He said
They didn't need to know who because they knew exactly who he was talking about. He wasn't the only one who saw you in their dreams because the whole week you had visited all of them and told them to stop him. They had no idea what you meant but now they know what you wanted them to stop. You saved Tony Stark and he desperately wishes he could've saved you.
