Internal Suffering

Hurt

It's been awhile since Dust started to hang out with me again... I love hanging out with him... 

I always feel calm and relaxed... Even when Chara or Frisk come, I can't help but actaully smile and laugh... To feel peaceful... But... That's only around him... 

I don't trust the skeleton that lives in my house... I don't trust the human anymore either... I don't trust any of the monster in my AU... I don't trust anyone but Dust... He's real with me... He knows me... The real me... The me that has nightmares... The me that smokes to calm down... The me that has to hide his pain and tears just because I'm not suppose to remember... The me that has cut and stabbed just to feel something... The me with the cold bones... The real me...

I walked around Snowdin, when... I saw it... Alphys and Papyrus cornering Dust... Weapons drawn. 

I gasped and forced myself to run. I ran just as Dust fell, HP low from their attacks.

"Dust!" I shouted, picking up my pace. 

At the sound of my voice, the two other monsters turned to me, eyes wide. I skidded down on my knees when I got close enough. 

I quickly pulled him up, he was bleeding badly! I had to do something!

"D-Dust!" I cried again as he coughed up blood. 

His odd eyes were shaking. He smiled up at me, chuckling softly. 

"H-Hey, Blues..." He muttered, pain in his voice. "T-Thought ya w-wouldn't b-be here..." He groaned as his HP went down half a point. 

My eyes were filling with tears, but I refused to let them fall.

"Heal him!" I barked at my brother, baring my teeth. "HEAL HIM, YOU MONSTER!" I  shouted, tears finally falling.

"Bro-"

"Don't you dare call me your fucking brother! You don't hurt my friends! Dust is my only reason for staying here! And you're trying to get rid of him! Go and fuck yourself, you selfish bastard!" I screamed at him, drawing attention. 

"Awe, come on, Blues... I thought you wanted to set a good example..." The dying monster winced softly as he tried to smile. 

My tears fell down on him, I was shaking as I racked my brain for things to do... I had never practiced healing... But...

I forced myself to focus my magic on healing... I had to! Slowly, his HP went up, the wounds healing themselves. 

After a couple of minutes, I felt my HP go down... I was fine with it... Saving my friend was all I cared about...

Tears never ended, not even after I had drained myself of all the magic I could afford. His HP was more than half way up... That was good... 

He quickly sat up and pulled me into a hug as I started feeling tired. 

"Hey, Bluebird, stay a wake... Just for a little longer?" He asked, his voice soothing...

I nodded, knowing my HP was low... It always was... I just took secret naps and messed with the code for anybody to know. 

Dusty pulled out a chocolate bar from his pocket, it somehow not have been destroyed. He broke off a small bit for me to eat.

I ate it without a problem, letting it heal me half way. 

"I don't wanna stay." I murmured, holding onto him tightly. 

"Okay... I think Nightmare wouldn't mind having you around..." The one monster who I cared about whispered. 

"Sans, don't you dare go with him!" Papyrus shouted, reaching for me. 

We let him grab me, pulling me up. This time, I was not going to be fake... They should know who I am... The real me...

I shoved my brother away, summoning my Gaster Blasters, pointing them at that thing. 

"Don't you fucking dare touch me, you asshole." I growled, shaking with anger. "You hurt me more times than I can count... You pushed me bound the fucking limits! You raped me in so many RESETS! You killed me in a few! You let Frisk kill me more times than ever! You even let them break my fucking bones! I don't want you near me ever again! If you even dare take a step to me or my Dust, I won't be afraid to kill. Any of you fucktards!" I warned, baring my sharp teeth.

They all were too stunned by my actions and words to do or say anything. I huffed, letting the Blasters go away. 

Dust took my hand and teleported us to Nightmare's place. He was in the living room with Cross cuddled into his side when we just popped in. 

He raised an eyebrow at us, mostly at me and my angered look. 

"Um... What happened?" He questioned. 

I growled softly, not wanting to think of it.

"Come on, Bluebird, no ones coming to get you." Dusty told me, kissing the top of my head. 

I instantly lost the anger, blushing brightly as I giggled. I couldn't help it... 

"Okay!" I chirped, letting true happiness seep into me. He makes me happy...