Cause And Effect

Hello?

I was happy that the weekend was still not over, but today was also the last day of the weekend.

When I got up off the couch from watching TV, my mom was gone

Was I into the TV that much?

"Eomma?" "Eommaaa"

"EOMMA?!"

I walked around the house, but she wasn't there.

Maybe she went to run an errand I guess.

I knew I had to be stronger because of what had happened yesterday.

I will be fine tomorrow
I will be fine tomorrow

I thought to myself.

As time passed, I noticed Mom didn't come home at all for hours......
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I decided to call her.

^sorry, but the person
You are trying to reach could not pickup the phone right
N—-^ I hung up.

I was getting worried.

But why should I?? I'm an 18 year old who is,I can take care of myself.

I went to my room and started watching my Kdramas , but I dozed off.

I woke up in the middle of the night and checked my phone. It was almost nine!

I jumped out of bed and turned on all the lights and looked around the house once again

No one......
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It was almost like a familiar feeling of me. Of being alone after Dad left and my friends moved........

Either that or Je-won made them push me away.

I stood in the middle if it all...
I could never stand up for myself I was too weak after Dad left.....

I stood in the middle of The house with my fists clenched just like I was throughout the chaos in the past.

I was shaking......
Doing nothing... helpless as before.

Will I ever change??

I felt crippled, worthless.....

I laid back down because thats all I was ever good at....

That and crying or doing nothing...
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Dad was right about one thing though..... being happy.

How does he always remain joyful??

How does a cause so grand make life so joyful??
Being alive?
Having money?
Having someone to count on?......