Thief

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... I sat on my bed, waiting for Alex to call. He did say he'd call me right?  He said he'd call me later. But, I suppose "later" could be from now to infinity.

Maybe he just doesn't actually like me. Maybe I'm too ugly and repulsive... Maybe he was lying about everything, faking the chemistry, pretending to feel how I feel, just lying to me. Maybe he's just a thief? It definitely wouldn't be the first time that's for sure.

What if he's out at a club or something?  Surely he's just with friends or family and hanging out with some people. Or maybe he just deleted my number and is never going to talk to me again....

OK. It is 3:46am. I'm just going to give up and go to sleep...

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I shot up. Maybe he texted while I was asleep?  I checked my phone. Nothing. Nothing at all. Well, he did just meet me last night so he probably will wait a day or two right? 

I decided to just go back to sleep, it's not like I have a life or anything actually productive to do today.

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I woke up and checked my phone again. A text! Well it's about fuckin time.

From: unknown
        Hey, I'm not doing anything today if you maybe want to come over and hang out?
      4:28pm

That was like three hours ago!  Oh God he probably thinks I'm not interested or something. What if I just blew it by not answering fast enough? 

So I quickly type a response. 

"hi! Sorry, I just got your text. But I would love to come over! 😊"

...that sounds to excited. Like I'm a stalker who finally got noticed by my fucking senpai or something. Ugh.... Maybe....

"hi, I just got your text. But".....

No. I sound so fucking idiotic.

"sorry, I just got your text. But I'd love to hang out daddy"

I pressed send.

SHIT. SHIT. SHIT.  There's a typo!!!  Fuuuuuckkkkkk meeee! Why?  Why does this happen at a TIME LIKE THIS?? 

"Oh fuck, sorry. I meant today, lol"

....did I just say "lol"? To another human?  I hate myself more than I hate people who don't believe in vaccines. I hate them a lot so that's saying something. 

Oh God, he answered. This could be bad.

"heh, you're really funny. I'm on the corner of 4th and main in apartment 216. See you soon ;-)"

Well what the shit is that supposed to mean? Does that mean he plans on having sex because I'm not about that life right now.  Oh God, I'm going to either die or get rapped there. Neither of those seem like a good option at the moment.

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I got to his apartment. Should I knock?  Maybe I should just leave.  "I think I should just leave. He probably doesn't like me that much anyway. He might not even notice if I never come." then the door opened.

"oh, I thought I heard someone talking. Wanna come in? " he said cheerfully.

.....someone talking?  Did.... Did I SAY THAT OUT LOUD??  Well fuck. Haven't even stepped inside and I already want to throw up and run away.

"uhm, yeah. Sure." I awkwardly smiled and walked in.

His place is... Weird. There's white walls and grey furniture. It looks like something from a lifestyle magazine. Where's all the clothes?  Where's all the trash and old food?  Why does he look recently cleaned?  ....i don't like this place. It's too nice.

"Do you want to go to a drive in movie, there's this one I want to see." he asked.

A drive in?  That still have those?  What the shit?

"oh, um yeah that sounds fine." I replied.

"cool, let's go." he said cheerfully.

Welp. This is happening then I guess?

We drove to the movie and parked. He's such a good driver, IS HE ALLOWED TO BE THIS PERFECT?? It's just not fair.

"do you, maybe want to sit on the hood?" he asked hopefully.

On the hood? Wait, what if I break his car or like bend it with my fat ass? Ohh this isn't going to be good.

"uh, sure."

We got out and he reached in the back seat to grab a few blankets. Man, he came in clutch. He layed one down to sit on and climbed up. I may or may not have stared at his ass the whole time. He helped me up like a gentleman and we awkwardly shuffled a bit to get comfortable.

"what movie is it?" I asked.

"beetlejuice. Ever saw it?"

"of course, I love this movie!" I got overly exited at that. Wow.

"I'm glad." he said laughing.

The movie started and we just settled into the car. We awkwardly made eye contact and smiled. He grabbed another blanket and threw it over us.

After like five minutes he reached over and laced our fingers together. I could feel my whole face going red, thank God it's so dark. He layed his head on my shoulder and sighed. I felt like I would either throw up or scream. I was trying to focus on calming down so my hand didn't clam on him. 

The movie was filled with cheesey jokes, laughs, and awkward shuffling.

The movie ended and he offered to drive me home. We parked in the driveway.

"I have to get up early tomorrow to go to breakfast with some friends, but I'll see you tomorrow yeah?" he asked.

He... Wants to see me again? Wow, he really is an angel.

"yeah, of course." I smiled.

He leaned over and kissed me, with a hand on my waist. He pulled away and smiled.

Fuck. Does he LIKE me?  What the actual fuck is happening right now?

"bye, see you tomorrow." I hurried out of the car before I had a chance to fuck up this perfect moment.

I smiled and closed the door. I could feel his eyes follow me until I closed the front door behind me.

Well. I may or may not be falling in love with this person. But I'm still too insecure to believe he likes me.