you make my day | soonhoon ✓

t h i r t e e n

YMMD // 13
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the next morning tasted bittersweet for jihoon as he wakes up with soonyoung's face nuzzled into his neck. he smiles, basking the familiar warmth he feels whenever he wakes up next to his friend. an array of white clouds are high up amid the blue and it reminds jihoon that there could still be better days.

jihoon slowly feels cold on the side of his neck as soonyoung starts to whimper and pull on his shirt to keep him close. as if he's going to drift away from him anytime soon. the boy is crying in his sleep, and he badly needs jihoon's warmth to tell him that he won't ever lose another person in his life again. "soonyoung," the younger one hums, "it's only a dream."

"am i going to lose you too?"

"no," jihoon simply answers, "i'm not letting that happen."

"really, hoonie?"

"yes, baby. i'll protect you until sundown and lay with you until sunrise, okay?" jihoon plants a kiss on his friend's forehead. soonyoung feels like he's melting. he hates how jihoon calls him baby and means it platonically, it's like his feelings are getting played. but he hears the sincerity in jihoon's voice. and he loves that.

"i'm sorry about last night, i wasn't in the right mind. i guess i'm just really desperate to feel loved," soonyoung mumbles while jihoon just hums in response as he continues to play with soonyoung's hair. then he remembers that they actually kissed. the thing is, jihoon doesn't really like soonyoung in that way. and he believes that soonyoung feels the same. they're just friends and it will always be like that.

honestly, being busy for the past few days made him realize how much he misses being with soonyoung. how much he misses to laugh with the boy with crescent eyes and a soft aura. he never knew that soonyoung has been dealing with a lot of stress lately (especially now that he just got kicked out of his own home) and he wants to make things light for him, to also make up for all the days he left him alone.

"i'm sorry," soonyoung repeats, snapping jihoon out of his thoughts. the moment he does, his eyes completely fall on the boy's lips- which is probably his new favorite thing.

fuck, he's your friend! jihoon tells himself. he shouldn't really be thinking so much about what happened to them last night, but it can't be helped. given that he spends so much time seeing soonyoung talk or smile, it would drive anyone to think that he knows every single thing that there is to know about soonyoung's lips, even just the slightest curve. but honestly, he had never imagined how warm and soft they would feel against his own.

"jihoon, are you listening to me?"

"w-what?"

soonyoung pouts, and jihoon couldn't help but to look at his lips once more. then he slaps himself mentally. "you must be thinking about a lot right now," soonyoung mutters as he pulls away from jihoon to get up. the latter frowns as he sees the bruises mapped all over soonyoung's skin. someone so beautiful doesn't deserve to be hurt that much.

"hey," jihoon sits up "i love you."

soonyoung looks at him for a few seconds. he's happy to hear jihoon saying it first and pouring all warmth on him, but at the same time it hurts. all the warmth won't last long. the sun will always set.

"i love you, jihoon."

the boy drags himself to the bathroom to wash his face. he shivers as the running water comes in contact with his hands. water splashes all over his face and he looks at himself on the mirror for a moment. you look so tired, he tells himself, the corners of his mouth trying to pull up a forced curve. he finishes up quickly then rushes downstairs, seeing jihoon sitting on the kitchen counter with a bowl of cereal.