One Direction Sickfics

Stressed on my own (Niall Centric)

A/N I haven't been around fo a while so here's an idea I had. Longer A/N at the bottom. This was not a prompt but I just needed to write this idea. 

Niall POV

I'm currently in the middle of the Flicker world tour and at the moment we are in Sweden. I love my job but at the moment management are being tighter than usual and this has resulted in too many interviews then a show and then trying to write for others for example other artists. I love my job don't get me wrong and I'm used to doing too many interviews but I'm doing more now then I was in One Direction. 

Doing this world tour has been a completely different experience to what I did in One Direction. You see I had the other lads with me and you could always find some time to rest (even if it was only sitting down for two minutes on twitter- I have no time for that now). Whereas now I am doing around 10 interviews a day followed by a 3 hour photoshoot and then a concert. Then its back to the hotel or bus and then when we get there I either have to write or record. I barely have time to eat (but I still do) or even go to the toilet. Management have really cracked down since we took the break. I think its because they want to keep making their money to be honest. They have never cared about our wellbeing- only their bank balance. To be honest I'm exhausted. I haven't had the chance to talk to anyone about it and I don't really have a chance to. I've spoken to the other boys don't get me wrong. They're all doing good but some of them have chosen to go with a different management. We have met up too but without the press knowing because then there would just be even more rumours. 

Thats another thing thats stressing me out is the media. They are a lot harsher now I'm on my own and they also like to make up some crap about the future of One Direction. They don't seem to understand that we want some time to concentrate on our own music. Harry, Louis and Liam agree too and it annoys them. Whatever the press says influences my schedule because if they are giving me a review that is lower than managements expectations then management make me work even harder and later to make sure that they keep a good reputation. They also like to make out that I'm dating someone when I am actually single. They also like to speculate on a relationship with the boys. We're close and we have a strong brotherly bond and there are a few bromances but thats it and thats where it ends. 

All of this hasn't helped my anxiety. Yes I have anxiety and also a mild case of OCD and all of the different schedule changes haven't helped this. The boys would always be there for me offload all these thoughts to but without them here I actually feel quite alone. I've pulled out my phone a couple of times but I can't ring home because of the time difference (although they have tried to contact me) and I can't ring the other lads because they are busy themselves. Liam has just split up with Cheryl, Louis is making his first album and looking after Freddie and Harry is finishing his massive world tour. I think he's been the most successful out of all of us. He has been able to play venues such as the O2 Arena in London and MSG in America but Liam has only done festivals and I've done small theatres and a few small arenas. That is another flaw management have found. 

My tour manager Mark comes in and tells me I've got ten minutes and I need to go and wait backstage. I sigh and leave my phone by my hoodie in front of the mirror. When I look up the person I see in the mirror is different to the person who set off from Mullingar a couple of months ago. I shake my head and walk out to the concert. All of today I have felt exhausted to an extreme level. Clumsiness, dizziness, drowsiness etc.

(Time skip to the last few songs in concert)

Being on stage always gives me an amazing feeling and tonight is no different although tonight I feel so exhausted I could just lie down and fall asleep. I know I'm not on the best form and management will call me in and make me work harder but I just want to get into bed. I've already messed up a couple of times but I just really don't want to upset the fans.