You told me you loved me....( Prodigy ) <Discontinued Until Further Notice

Difficult Times

     I drove back to the studio with Cory fast asleep. He was loving being with mommy but now that Craig would be home with the baby, I thought I'd make it easier and drop Corhan at his grandmothers house. I pulled out my phone and texted Chres's mother. Even though we weren't together anymore she still loved me because of the relationship we continue to have. "Hey mama." "Hi sweetie." "Can I drop off Cory for a few?" "Sure I miss my sweet sugar lump anyway." "Kay. thanks momma." "Later Sweetheart." I smiled at her response. I just love Chres's mother.

     I brought a sleeping Cory upstairs to his bedroom. Chres's mother held my hand and led me to the couch. "What's going on dear?" "He stopped laying his hands on me." Mama August looked at me nervously. "That's good baby." "No its not." I mumbled. She pinched my thigh. "What are you talking about?" "I wanted him to keep on so I could leave and then I'd be able to be with Chres. But plans were ruined when his house got burnt and then when he came its like Craig just turned to mister good guy. To be honest mama I haven't been faithful either." Mama looked at me and caressed my hand. "it looks as if Chresanto is a threat to Craig." She chuckled. "He doesn't wanna lose you and he knows you love Chresanto. That's why he's being so good to you baby. And what do you mean not faithful?" She asked giving me a very stern look. "No disrespect momma but I missed your sons good loving and I couldn't help myself. Not that Craig's horrible. I just- I don't know- I love Chreaanto but I have Chresanto, y'know momma?" She smacked my shoulder really hard. "ouch." "That's for giving Chres the time of day. But honestly baby, who do you want. Just choose now." "That's the problem. I haven't told anyone yet but we ended up becoming guardians of these two children about a month and a half ago and they see me as mommy, Craig as Daddy and Chres as uncle." I huffed annoyed with life. I couldn't help but start crying. "Momma I just wanna be happy." "Oh baby." She held me as I cried and to my surprise, Chresanto walked through the door.

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     Chresanto slowly walked in when he noticed me in tears. "Hey mom." He quickly walked over to me and wiped the tears from my face. "What's wrong? Did he hit you?" He immediately got mad and I quickly shook my head no. He calmed down. "Baby, what's wrong?" I looked away from him and let my tears fall as I nodded at MomMa. She sighed heavily and Chresanto looked up to her. "She's torn between you, Craig, and her children." Chresanto stood up and his face became emotionless. I quickly wiped my tears. He looked down to me and chuckled sadly. "its No doubt that I love you. Bit there's no reason for me to go up against Craig if he's gonna get chosen each time. Plus your kids are more important. I understand that. Do what makes you happy." Chres's mother tried to hold his hand bit he snatched it away quickly. "No. Sorry Momma. Just not now. Please?" His voice cracked and he quickly went stomping through the back door. I heard him scream in frustration. Momma August looked pale as tears rushed down her face. "Momma I'm sorry." "Baby its not your fault. I just don't like seeing him hurt and confused." I nodded, "I swear mama. I want Chres, I just. I cant . Craigs in the way and the kids. I don't know what to do." I hugged her and she kissed my forehead. "Hush baby. What you need is a long time to yourself to think." I nodded. "Your Right." "Go talk to Chres for me. You're the only one who can calm him baby." I nodded and walked outside to the backdoor.

    Chresanto sat with his head in his hands in the soft grass. I sat next next to him and he got up and walked away. "Chres....?" He looked at me with regretful eyes. "What do you want?" He spat. I knew he was just hurt. "You." I whispered. He shook his head. "Make up your fucking mind and stop playing with my feelings. okay? It fucking hurts and bothers me all the time. Do you love me or not? Do you want to be with me or Craig? I can't do this anymore Christelle. I fucking love you and you fail to realize that. " I looked down. "I don't fail to realize that. Trust me," I chuckled sadly. "I love you so much that I don't know how to keep myself happy if I don't see you or Cory. I love you so much I risk getting beat down every time I cheat with you. He thinks your a challenge Chres. Don't you notice that? He hasn't hit me since you moved in. What does that tell you?" Chres thought for a second. "I know I'm a challenge but I'm never sure who your going to pick. I can tell you love him too. I'm not fucking stupid. Just make up your mind. I'm tired of my heart and emotions being played with so much. What you should be doing is taking time to think." With those words Chres walked in and greeted his mother properly then left back to the studio for hours long work.