TOP Secret (T.O.P FanFiction)

Chapter Ten: Blue Bracelet

I sit down beside Seung Hyun and hold on to his hand tightly. I wonder what's going through his mind. This isn't good. Why is Jesse here? And why is he in my house?

"So. Soong Hoon, what do you do for a living?" My father asks as he grabs a cloth napkin and places it on his lap."I'm currently in a band called BigBang, we're pretty big in Korea."

"Oh, no degree? Figures."

I glare at my father and scold him with a stern voice. "Dad."

"I'm planning to go to school and get a degree, I'm only 26 I need money for that first, I never thought that my career in a band would take off."

Evan looks up at me and stabs a piece of my meatloaf. I do the same. My father rubs a hand over his stubbly chin before shoving meat into his mouth. Oh god this is going to be bad. Evan pokes the piece of meatloaf off his plate. "What I don't understand," Evan begins to say before setting his fork back down. "Is why my sister would date someone like...that but not a business man."

I glare at my younger brother, slamming down the silverware. "No Evan. That's not fair. How long have you been waiting for your stupid rapping career to take off? Three years?"

Seung Hyun straightens himself up in the chair as he clears his throat loudly.

"It's different." Evan defends from across from me. I notice his fist being clenched so tight that his knuckles begin to turn pale. "How the hell is it any different? Why is it that when YOU date someone, nobody judges her." I practically spit at him. My brother's blue eyes search my ocean-green ones for a response. His lips slightly part as if he was going to speak but he just stares blankly.

"Because I don't date ching-chong eyed people." He quickly says before snapping his mouth shut and clenching his jaw. I glare at him and give him a face that sarcastically read 'really?'.

Seung Hyun grabs a napkin that sits next to his plate and slowly wipes his mouth, before setting it back down."Sir, I assure you I am not playing around with your daughter."

He squeezes my hand under the table then begins to speak again."I care about her more than I care for myself and I promise to take care of her."

Evan drops his fist on the table so hard that the water glasses almost fall over and the plates jump up. I jump in my seat. My eyes stay pasted on my brother who is staring right back at me with anger burning in his iris.

"Is this why you're going to China or whatever? Dad set you up with a great guy, who just so happens to be one of my best friends, and you turn him down for this," He points at Seung Hyun who was sipping on some water. "You've got to be fucked up."

Seung Hyun sets down the glass and looks over at me silently. His jaw is clenched shut and his glare set off some anger. Damn.

"You know Elise, I still want this to work. You can still say goodbye to Song Hyoon. I'll be there for you." Jesse reaches over to touch my shoulder but I scoot away from him and closer to Seung Hyun. "See," my father begins to say, "He's still willing to make it work after all you've put him through."

My mom looks at me and sighs. I stand up, Seung Hyun standing after me. We walk to the front door in awkward silence. "I should get going."

"No, don't." I reply,the empty feeling in my stomach falling deeper.

He looks around the room, feeling nothing but pure hatred. "This wasn't a good idea." He walks out of the door but before he could leave I grab onto his arm feeling confused and angry.

"I'm going with you!" I exclaim but he removes my arm off of him. "No. I know how it feels to have people dislike me but Elise, your family hates me. And I don't want that for you."

I sigh then smile at him weakly. My hand slowly forces its way to his only to have him pull that away too.

~TOP's POV~

Elise forces her fingers in between mine with a saddened smile.

"Where will you go?" She asks. "Far away." I answer. "Around the globe?" She asks, her eyes like glimmering stars.

"No, farther away, to a place where the night can't touch the day and where nobody's eyes will look the way your eyes do right now." I say as I wipe a tear away from her cheek. "Can I come and visit?" She asks me. I sigh before replying. "Maybe you will, and when you do, I'll be waiting."

My lips kiss the side of her face before I slowly take her hand off of mine.

I quickly walk away before I had to see her start crying.

"Seung Hyun!" She yells after me but I keep on my path. Eventually my walk turns into a jog, then into a sloppy run. Tears stream down my cheeks forcing me to quickly wipe them from my face.

My vision becomes blurry so I stop after a few more steps. I run about a mile until I finally flag down a cab and give him directions to my apartment.

Although the cab smells of salty sweat and rubber, I stay quiet the whole way. "We're here." The driver speaks as he holds his hand out for the payment. I reach into my pocket and grab my wallet. My hands shake lightly as I open it up and hand him the money. I step out of the car and stare up at the building that is filled with rowdy band members.

To my surprise, when I open the door, Jiyong is the first one to greet me. He jumps up from the couch and smiles excitedly.

"Hyung! How was the dinner? Your eyes look, red? Are you okay?" Jiyong asks before I quickly walk to my room, slamming the door shut behind me.

My mind's running wild. All my body knows to do in this kind of situation is yell in frustration. What have I done? I look at my reflection in the mirror in front of me. My skin is pale, my eyes are red and my whole expression just screamed sadness. Every image of Elise smiling runs through my head like a flash. I grab on to my dark hair tightly, slightly pulling on to it. My eyes shut tight and my body's shaking. I lost her. I'll never get her back...

"Seung Hyun!" Someone bangs on the door loudly but I ignore the loud, irritating noise. Bang Bang Bang. I pace back and forth unsure of how to feel. How do you get over someone who you were sure to last long with? I throw my back against the wall and drag myself down until I hit the floor. Thud. "Seung Hyun!" Ji screams. His voice is filled with worry and confusion. "I'm okay." I yell at him from where I sit. I'm sure the tone in my voice could tell him other wise.

The banging stops. "Are you sure? Open the door, maybe I can help." He says soothingly. I groan then stand up and open the door enough to only see his face. "I'm fine Ji...just...leave me alone."

He looks at me, his mouth slightly open, a bit of shock radiating off of his worried expression. I wipe my face then look at him. "Please."

Ji nods quietly then walks away into his own room which was a few doors down from mine. I push my hand against the door until I hear it click shut. I inhale deeply and close my eyes. My breath was shaky and unsteady as my feet drag along the tile, to my bed. I throw myself on the cushony mattress, and then stare at the bare ceiling. So blank, so plain and simple. If only my life could be like that.

Tears begin to well up in my eyes but I try hard to keep them in only to fail in the process. I turn on my left side and look out the window to the brightly lit city of New York. What they say is right, this city really does never sleep; and I have a feeling that I wont be sleeping either.

I sigh then glace at my side table. Something blue catches my eye. That's not mine, and it's not supposed to be there. Was it a bracelet? A shaky hand removes itself from my side to grab the stringy object. I look at the beautiful accessory in the palm of my hand only to have sadness overtake my innocent conscious. It's Elise's bracelet; and it's the last thing that I have of hers.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Please vote and comment! Hiya, I'm sorry it's kinda sad. .-. I used a sample of someone's writing in here so creds to them I guess. DISCLAIMER: this isn't the actual story behind the bracelet! Okay, byeeeee!