Mr. Rockstar (Sk8er girl sequel)

6

Jamie -

There he is. I'm as stiff as a board, staring up at him. Fuck, he's turning towards us and now his eyes just met mine.

Is it hot in here or is it just me? It's getting harder to breath, I'm shaking. Panic attack. It's too loud. I put my phone in my pocket and cover my ears, beginning to try and breath.

"Jamie? Jamie, are you okay?"

Mercedes finally notices me, I shake my head and close my eyes.

"P-pan-panic attack." I stutter out, breathless. She wraps her arms around me and rushes us to the bathroom. I fling myself to the sink and begin trying to calm myself down with cold water.

"How do you stop a panic attack?" she asks, nervously running her hands through her hair.

I read somewhere that holding your breath can stop a panic attack.

I fall to the ground and breath in and hold. I feel myself calm down as I breath out. I haven't had a panic attack since I was ten and my parents were fighting about something, it got so violent that I couldn't take it. Not to mention, I have asthma attacks every so often. I grab ahold of the sink and lift myself up before splashing water in my face.

"You okay?" she asks, I nod and take another deep breath. "We can leave if you want, I don't mind at all." she suggests, I shake my head.

"I'll be fine, let's get back out there." I smile at her and link arms with her before heading back towards our seats.

They were in the middle of singing Diana, Niall was on the other side of the stage. I'm not going to let him ruin our night, I came to have fun and that's all I'm going to do. After Diana, they began to start Midnight Memories. My worries were lost and replaced with joy and horrid dancing, Mercedes and I were having the time of our lives singing in out of tune voices and dancing around like complete morons. Niall would glance over at us every so often but I chose to ignore him and have fun with my new friend, I'm glad I came tonight with her.

They went through their set list and it was nearly eleven when it was coming to an end. "This last song is for a special girl in the crowd." Harry looks over at our direction. Shit. "This is Half a Heart." he says as Niall and the band begin the song. It finally gets to Niall's part and he looks directly at me while singing

"Though I try to get you out of my head

The truth is I got lost without you

And since then I've been waking up to" he sings perfectly then it goes into the chorus.

All the feelings I had with him come back up and I can't tear my eyes away from him, the tears rolling down my face as I turn towards Mercedes who smiles and comforts me in her arms. I don't want to miss him, I want him to get over me and find someone better than me. Someone who can handle the long distance, someone who isn't me. I mean, who wants me? I'm just a drop out that writes songs and posts them on YouTube.

I sigh and wipe my eyes as they say their goodbyes before exiting the stage, everyone begs for more but Mercedes and I head through the back door to get back to the car.

We're walking and talking about something when I trip over a cord and begin to fall before getting caught by a pair of arms, Niall.

A/N -

Hey guys! Sorry this is such a short chapter! I was wondering, if I posted a 5sos story, would you guys read it? I think it would be a Michael Clifford or a Luke Hemmings fanfiction. Comment if you would and what boy I should write about, please vote as well! I love you all and I hope you have a good rest of the day/night!

Lots of Love,

Rosie 💋