"And remember that no matter how fat, ugly, useless and worthless you may be... I am the only one that loves you and cares about you.. I am your best friend after all..."
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Mia visited me only around once or twice a week.
She would never replace Ana.
And now as I was cooking for my brother, Mia came inside along with Ana.
Ana smirked as she walked upstairs but I didn't catch it.
Mia makes her way towards me.
"Mmmhh! This smells so good! Don'tyou wanna eat some? It won't harm anyone!"
She said as clinged onto me looking at the food in the pot.
"N-no! I can't! I will gain weight!"
I say looking terrified at the food in front of me. My stomach begging for it.
"I know a way you can eat whatever you want and not gain a single gram."
She smirks and I turn to her interested.
"W-what is it?"
"You can eat the whole pot, and not consume a single calorie. Ana will never know that you even ate!"
Her smirk gets larger as I hesitate to say no.
"Come on, don'tfight it! We both know you want it!"
She says.
"O-okay I'll do it! But how does it work."
"First you eat, then you puke. As simple as that."
Hello to everyone who is reading this book. I'd like to apologise for leaving you hanging for almost a month. But I was seriously considering deleting this book due to mental health issues. I've had a very bad mindset when involving food and Ialmost developed an eating disorder myself. Thankfully I stopped before it was too late. (Further information in an author's note in The ex member) I asked for advice from a person veryclose to me and they said that this is affecting me along with anyone else who reads this book in a bad way. I didn't know what todo. I had put a lot of myself in this book. A lot of my thoughts and time. At first I wasn't even going to publish it. I just found it as a place to be able to let all of my insecurities glow freely. So I decided against deleting it. I am already much much much better. And I hope everyone out there will be better soon as well. I also hope that if you have problems with body image and body positivity/love, you won't read this book or anything similar and seek professional help. I also hope you know you are loved no matter the size of your clothes or the food inside your stomach.
