One day

Chapter 7

I knew I had to get to my parent’s house, but I was excited yet nervous to the “new guy” Ryan. Before even really thinking about it, what if Nate sees us? At this rate, I don’t really care if he gets jealous because “we’re fighting” or whatever it’s called when we both ignore each other when we should be resolving it.

“Hey, Ally?” I heard Ryan’’s voice sneak up behind me. He motioned his head to the side, directing me to the near by alley. I got sort of nervous when it was just him, but when we just talked it felt natural and wonderful. I don’t think I’ve ever had a chat like this with Nate, ever. At one point of our conversation I looked over my shoulder smiling, and saw Nate chatting with another girl. He whispered into her ear, making her giggle uncontrollably. I took a deep breath, It’s probably nothing, don’t over think it.  I said to myself. Daphne soon came over to him and slapped his hand away from her cheek and directed his attention towards Ryan and I, making his expression turn angry - This probably won’t help our no talking situation.

“Hey, it was nice talking to you. Chat me sometime?” I handed him my number, and he smiled at it. As I began to walk over to Nate, to my surprise he stayed put.

“Who’s that?” His eyes stayed on Ryan.

“Oh, Ryan. A “new kid” according to Haley.” I chuckled, remembering how embarrassed she was when she knew she was wrong.

“You’re talking to Haley again?” His eyes focused back to mine.

“Yeah, she apologized and introduced Daphne and I to Ryan.” I said, pointing back at Ryan. When I turned back to face Nate, I was shocked by his lips connecting with mine. My eyes were wide, until he decided to deepen the kiss. I knew he didn’t mind PDA, because I’ve seen him with Haley all over the place kissing each other. He opened his mouth, and slid his tongue over mine. He was my first kiss, and it felt more amazing than I pictured it. A moan I didn’t know I had in me, came out. Nate smiled, and held my face in place. His lips, tasting better than I had imagined in my head. The shape of them, perfectly fit into mine. I wrapped my arms around his neck, and he pulled me into him by my waist. When our kiss was over, my eyes were still shut. We stared at each other and smiled, not really realizing what we had just done in front of most of the school. I turned to see Ryan’s reaction, and he was marching away with an upset look on his face.

“Let’s go to my house.” I probably hadn’t seen the inside of Nate’s house since about 6th grade, and it looked huge then so I was curious to see what it looked like now. I was nervous to know what would happen when we got there, but I hoped more of what we just did. I wasn’t very close to wanting to go further than that yet, so if he tried anything I don’t know what I’d do. I nodded, and he held my hand to his lips and kissed it. We laughed about many things until the subject of Ryan came up.

“That’s why you kissed me, isn’t it? Because you are jealous.” I held out my last word, and shoved me to the furthest side of the sidewalk.

“Well maybe if you weren’t flirting with him.” He got more angry by our fairly long conversation over Ryan.

“I was not! And you shouldn’t be talking. If Daphne wouldn’t have stopped you, you probably would’ve kept on flirting with her.” I crossed my arms across my chest, because I did mentioned the fact of him “falling in love with another girl on the street”.

“Okay, I’ll admit I was “flirting” with her. But do you know who that girl I was “flirting” with is?” He smirked at me, I could tell I was about to be proved of something.

“No.” I looked shyly at the ground.

“She’s my sister Julie. I was touching her cheek because she had something on it, I’m sure that’s why you thought I was “flirting” with her. Isn’t it?” He raised his eyebrows, happy that he proved me wrong.

“Maybe.” I smiled, feeling bad about what I accused him of when I was the only true guilty one. “I’m sorry it seemed like if I was flirting with him. I guess I just didn’t realize I was doing it, which isn’t a great excuse, but that’s all I have to say about it.” He chuckled up at the sky, grabbing onto my other hand to bring me in front of him.

“Let’s just kiss now.” He closed his eyes, leaning into me. It was as long of a kiss as last time, but it was still very public.

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When we walked into the front door, it wasn’t as big as what it looked like when I was in 6th grade.

“Is your mom home?” I asked, some of me hoping she was here.

“Not for a few more hours.” He smiled at me, it’s like he thought I wanted her to not be home. “Cmon.” He lead me upstairs and shut the door behind us once we got into his room. He pushed me onto the bed, and climbed on top of me and kissed my neck. He let his hands roam up and down my sides.

“Nate, go easy. I just had my first kiss less than an hour ago, calm down.” I nervously said in his ear, but he just continued with his actions. “Nate, please.” It sounded more like a moan so he kept doing it, but now rougher. It’s like the Nate I knew was gone, and the Nate on top of me was someone who didn’t care about me getting hurt or my feelings in this. I began to cry, and Nate unbuttoned my pants. Since Nate is so much stronger than me, and very hormonal I couldn't get out of this no matter what. When I wiggled enough, I was able to get out from under him.

“What are you doing, we were kissing!” He got so angry, he must think I was enjoying what was just going down. The kissing was nice, but the ruffled up shirt and beginning to unbutton my pants is way too far.

“This is too far Nate. I kept trying to get you to stop, but it’s like you weren’t there at all. What happened when you kept asking if I was “alright”? I am not ready to have sex, I know you and Haley probably have done it rough and a lot but I haven’t even had my first kiss until today.” I was huffing, puffing and crying in front of what I thought was the love of my life. “And if you think this was fun for me? I don’t even know if you have protection, or care for me that it will hurt so badly.” Unlike what I’m used to, the comforting Nate, he just stood in place.

“I bet I can get into Haley’s pants, Daphne’s nonetheless easier than you!” He just wanted sex, probably because now that he didn’t have Haley to do it with he needed someone else.

"I can’t believe you. I thought you would always be that caring guy that I fell in love with, but you’re just like every other teenage boy. All you’re in it for was the sex. I am leaving, and do not chase after me.” I angrily wiped a tear off my cheek, rushing out the door.

“Oh yeah! Then I guess you’re right about me falling in love with another girl, because I’m sure I’ll find another that actually wants to have sex with me easily.” He yelled as I ran down the stairs and out the door. He was a jerk, the Nate I knew wasn’t a jerk. What changed him? Maybe this happened with Haley, but she let him in instead. If Ryan was like Nate, I don’t think I could handle another Nate. Making me fall for them, and then hurting me right when I need them most. Oh crap, my parents.