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Chapter fourteen

Like every other normal morning before school, i sat on the ramp with my skateboard next to me, smoking one of my cigarettes because stress was my forte. It used to always be like this, every single morning. Me, Ryan and Pete would all sit here before school chatting about random shit. But then i met Gerard and shit turned upside down and now Pete couldn't give a shit about me, Mikey won't even glance towards my direction and I'm hanging onto Ryan by a fucking thread.

"Hey." Ryan smiled as he dropped down next to me. "Smoking already?"

I rolled my eyes and shook my head. "What more could you expect?" I shrugged and looked away. Watching the clouds look still against the warm morning sky. I sighed and looked down at my tattered Vans hanging over the ramp below me.

"Ya know," Ryan sighed and nudged me gently "Pete'll understand eventually." He smiled reassuringly.

Unfortunately, i knew he was wrong. Pete already understood. He understood that his best friend was having an illegal relationship with his Art teacher. It was nothing more nothing less, i simply was kidding myself if i thought otherwise.

I shook my head gently, more to my own thoughts then to Ryan. I only sat there silently listening to my own mind and thinking about what a stupid naive boy i was being.

"I told Pete i'd go to the mall with him after school for Halloween costumes," He smiled, but it seemed sympathetic and almost guilty. 

"Cool," I nodded awkwardly "You going together?" I questioned as i took the last drag from my cigarette and stubbed it out on the concrete beside me.

Ryan nodded and kicked his legs slightly "Yeah, i think Mikey and Alicia are coming with us too." 

"Are they a thing now?" I questioned raising my eyebrow.

"I guess so," He shrugged seemingly as careless about it as i was.

"What about Brendon?" 

"I'm meeting him there," He smiled. "You should come with us."

I scoffed and shook my head "I really don't think that's a good idea."

Ryan frowned "I want you to come with us." He said, looking at me directly.

I shook my head because i really couldn't go to a party with them, it would be the most awkward thing ever. "Ryan, i don't think you understand. Pete doesn't like me and Mikey will cut my dick off and burn it right in front of my eyes if i was 5 inches near him."

He scowled at me with confusion, of course i hadn't told him about the whole Mikey situation, i was too worried about Gerard. I sighed and rolled my eyes "Mikey knows about me and Gerard." 

Ryan's eyebrows flew up "Really? And you didn't think to tell me?" His expression was slightly offended and i felt guilty within milliseconds.

I shook my head "Well...no." I sighed, looking down guiltily "I was too busy making sure Gerard didn't go to jail because of his brother." I shrugged, hoping that was a good enough explanation/excuse.

Ryan sighed "So his brother finds out he's 'fondling' with his friend-"

"Fondling!?" I giggled and look at him strangely.

"You haven't fucked him yet." He shrugged.

"Yet?!" I giggled and shoved him playfully.

"Alright, alright!" He chuckled and fixed his hair. "So what? I don't care what Mikey or Pete think." He said as he looked dead in my eyes "I want you there, despite what's happening. I want my best friend to be there."