The Childhood Friend || Kim Namjoon ✔️

Chapter 14: Caught In A Lie

I build up the nerve and walk up to namjoon. He's not with others, he's just on his phone.

I stand in front of him. Once he notices my legs, he looks up curiously. "Hey y/n." he smiles shyly. Oh he definitely remembers.

"Hey Kim namjoon, my childhood friend, Bestfriend for 10 years." I speak through clenched teeth. His eyes widen and he throws his phone to the side. He stands adrubtly, towering over me.

"You remember?" he breathes.

"Oh yeah, I remember. And so do you." I point sternly at him. His face looks so confused.

"Nothing to say? You said plenty to your band mates. In fact, you knew the second you saw me, didn't you? That's funny because I don't remember you saying anything."

Tears are now spilling violently as my voice shakes. I'm now no longer mad, I'm just sad, sad that my best friend didn't say anything.

"I was scared you didn't remember me." he grips my shoulders. "So was I." I confess. "But you knew you'd have to be the one to do something eventually. I'm not the confident one, you are, you always were." I sob

"What do you mean I was the confident one?"

"Wow, even back then you were blind. That was only around you namjoon. If you had focused how I react around others then maybe you'd understand."

"What are you-" oh I'm sick of this shit, I'll tell him.

"For the love of everything, I loved you namjoon. Hell, those feelings never went away. I never was this confident girl you knew. I acted that way because those were the girls you liked. It earned me the title of Bestfriend but not the title I wanted."

He was speechless. I just admitted my longing love of 14 years to him. And this is where my life goes all the way down hill. What hurts more is he is just sitting there. Great, I just completely ruined my life.

With that I walk away and don't look back. I ruined it and I know I did. Any friendship we could've still had, disappeared.

Namjoon P.O.V.

She just walked away and I sit here being pathetic, doing nothing. I could've saved our friendship right then and there, but I didn't.

"Namjoon I'm so sorry." Jin speaks from besides me. I hadn't realized everyone had seen what just went down, including Jin's lady friend when it all happened. It's like a part of my life was just torn away.

"I'll go talk to her." Jin's friend speaks, running off to where y/n just went. I doubt it will do much.

"She'll forgive you Namjoon, don't stress." Jimin speaks with a small smile on his face. A smile of sympathy. But only if it was that easy. She professed her love for me, how could I be so blind?

"Damn, just when I thought we had a friend." speaks yoongi from the opposite side of the room. Jin is quick to act and slaps him upside the head. "Not helping Bro." Jin says to yoongi sternly as yoongi rubs his head.

I sit on the coach I was previously sitting on and rub my hands through my hair. "I messed up." I breath barely audible.

Your P.O.V.

"Wait y/n!" I hear a voice call after me. That's when I notice the pounding footsteps close behind. I would run faster but I feel if I do, I'll break. Besides that voice isn't any of the guys, it's my friend.

I slow my pace until I finally just stop. Looking at the ground, I let my tears flow into a puddle onto the concrete. Why is life so unfair?

Someone's hand grabs my arm and I look up at the person who did so. She stands there with a worried expression on her face. Before she can even say a word, I break down in her arms.

"Shh. Y/n it'll be okay. We'll figure this out." she comforts. But how is what to ask. How can I fix this mess I've created? I had a chance to save the friendship but I chose selfish reasons to destroy it. And even when I know it's my fault, I still have anger towards the person causing me these feelings.

"Let's get you home okay? Wait in the lobby while I grab my things from upstairs. I promise to run." the last part makes me smile a bit. The humor in her voice shows she was trying to cheer me up. It didn't exactly work like I bet she wanted but it made me smile.

I nod and follow her inside. I see a last glimpse of her and she runs into a full sprint. She wasn't kidding I guess.

It had been 5 minutes and I was ready to drive home by myself. She must be talking to the guys for me. Soon I see her exit the elevator while panting. I furrow my eyebrows in confusion. She didn't actually run the entire way did she?

"Sorry...i had to...tell the guys...you were....going home." she speaks in between heavy breaths. A small laugh leaves my mouth. She smiled at me before straightening her posture and throwing an arm over my shoulder. "Now let's go order a crap ton of junk food and eat out hearts out while binge watching Netflix." she laughs. I nod with a small smile, no longer crying.