I wish you could see
How important you are to me
Everything about you, I love
Your crooked grin
That takes my breath away
Your pale, soft skin
With it's scars
Because you're a fighter
-Never letting your obstacles beat you-
Your dark eyes that are brighter
Than the stars
To me
Your soft pink lips
That once showed me your love
Through your determined
But soft spoken words
Through their touch
Your low rumble of a voice
That would bring a smile to my face
But one day things weren't the same
I realized you weren't coming back
I miss you so much
Everything feels cold and empty
Just like me
I still see you
But I see you with her
And everytime I see how happy you are
And everytime my heart breaks even more
The little pieces left ache
It leaves me with no heart
No emotion
No happiness
Just numbness
Just an empty space in my chest
And everytime I feel so selfish
Because I'm sad that you're happy
Well I'm sad that I couldn't be the one to make you happy
Instead I hide in the shadows
Seeing you look at her with pure love
And I wonder did you actually ever look at me like that?
And it's as if you feel my sad stares
'Cause your eyes flicker through the hallway
But I look down at my phone and crank my music higher
And try not to cry
But I can't keep it in forever
My tears they fall in the shower
As my shoulders shake
As I scrub my skin raw
As if I could wash you off
But it never works
It just hurts
More
October. 30. 2016
