5sos boyxboy One Shots

the taste of your skin tonight | cake

My industrial bar is bleeding while writing this I'm crying in the club :(

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  "Luke, babe, stop," Calum pushed on Luke's chest a bit. He sat up where he was straddling Calum's lap.

  He had a confused and hurt look on his face. Calum wished they could continue, wishes that he didn't have the end this. What they had was young love which doesn't often last, but Calum thought they could last.

  Though he didn't let Luke know that.

  "I've been thinking lately..." Calum trailed off, resting his hands on Luke's shoulders. The blonde knew this couldn't be good.

  "We aren't sixteen anymore," he sighed looking anywhere but his ocean eyes, "we're older now and- and I think that maybe we should stop...what we have. F-for the band."

  And if Luke wasn't hurt before, now he felt like someone just took his piece of candy and ate it right in front of him.

  Except Calum was his candy. And the universe was pulling his reason for existing away from him.

  "If it's the band or us, Calum, I choose-"

  "Don't." Calum placed a finger over the thin pink lips, and he closed his eyes willing the tears in them to stop.

He leant down and kissed Luke, hard and passionate. Full lips overtaking Luke's thin ones. Calum tilted his head immediately and felt the cool metal of the lip ring against his tongue and lips. He licked Luke's bottom lip, committing it to memory because he knew it'd be a while.

  And yeah it has been a while. 4 years. Both boys still remember the night before and exactly how the other tastes.

  They didn't talk about it after that and Calum was quick to pick up a smoking habit. Things were awkward at first and they had to tell the other two boys they called it off and they knew they were hurting. But they had to get through it for the success of the band. Everything was all about the band.

  Now they're selling out arenas left and right and living large. Money piling in and it's everything they'd ever wanted.

  Right?

  Wrong. Calum didn't have everything he wanted. Yes this was his dream, all of their dream and it came true. That's something that doesn't happen very often in life. But he was missing a piece of himself and he knew exactly what was the matter.

  After about a year without Luke he'd been better. He successfully wiped the memories and feelings from his brain (not his heart) and he had a couple girlfriends. They we're nice. All three were pretty, blonde, blue eyed, and sweet.

  He thought he'd fallen in love with one of them which was good for him. And Luke had gotten a few girlfriends as well though the first relationship was an absolute nightmare but they don't discuss that.

  And he was happy for him, really, that he moved on. He smoked at least a half a pack of camel's a day but there was a smile on his face around Luke always.

  During that little space after him and the girl broke up, Calum and Luke were always hanging out. Luke had come to him for advice with a broken heart and Calum thought it was ironic. But Luke has a new girl now. She's tall, brunette, warm, dark eyes and caramel skin.
 
  (everything Calum is but he's not going to admit it out loud)

  Currently they're on Calum's couch with Duke in between them. He's grateful for that because he knows that if even smells Luke, inhales just a little bit of the barely-there cologne he wears, he'll never be able to take his hands off of the younger boy.