please? (carl grimes love story)

Sight Of The Sun

'For once there is nothing up my sleeve

Just some scars from a life that used to trouble me

I used to run at first sight of the sun

Now I lay here waiting for you to wake up

The city outside still sounds like it’s on fire

You put on new sheets, the white flag of a Saturday night

I know we stayed up talking in circles

But I like to think the symmetry will keep me close to you

For everyone, I’m out to prove wrong, you keep the light on

The only one, you know me better than the truth

So, despite what I’ve done, I pray to God that we can move on

'Cause thus far you are the best thing that this life has yet to lose

And for once there is nothing up my sleeve

Just some scars from a life that used to trouble me

I used to run at first sight of the sun

Now I lay here waiting for you to wake up

I lay here waiting for you to wake up

So if you gonna leave, if you gonna go

I can’t bare to sleep without you in my arms

I know we got caught up sifting through a crowd of pebbles and lures

But you must not let them take you

They don’t know you like I do

For once there is nothing up my sleeve

Just some scars from a life that used to trouble me

I used to run at first sight of the sun

Now I lay here waiting for you to wake up

I lay here waiting for you to wake up

Do you remember when we stayed up till the sun strikes through the room

I used to blame it on the Queen’s Walk in down 7th avenue

It’s been years now since we moved

I gotten good at an excuse

You know I try not to speak superlatives

But it’s impossible to you

The city outside is nothing but a flicker now

You see our friends to bed, you turn out the lights

I start to think you’ll make a beautiful mother I,

I like to think I have everything I want from this life'

I finished singing quietly as I sat on the lawn tracing the scars. "hey kid" Daryl said which made me jump and pull down my sleeves. "um hi" I said nervous that he saw. "hey just wondering what you were downing over here alone" "um just thinking of old memories" I pushed the lies right through my teeth. "oh I heard you singing again and doing something with your wrists" "Oh I was just um just um um" "just what Spy you can tell me" I sighed "ok fine" I said pulling up my sleeves. he gasped saying "these aren't that old. Are they?" "no not exactly but also not that new." "where is it?" he asked "no you can't take it from me" I said through gritted teeth. "Spyryte give it to me now" he yelled.

I reached into my pocket and pulled it out flinching when he grabbed it from me. "you better not lose it, it means a lot to me." I cried out as I walked to my cell. "hey Spy- hey what's the matter?" Carl said as I ran off. "Spy come back" he continued to yell as I ran off. I stopped ans turned around "listen carl if you want to know what the hell is wrong with me ask Daryl!!" I yelled at him. I turned around I ran again.

~~Carl's P.O.V~~

what happened to her? I ran to Daryl to ask him. "Daryl, what the hell happened to Spyryte?" I asked noticing her utility knife in his hand. "did she sho-" "yes and I got worried so I took it away and she got mad and took off" he cut into my sentence. "what the hell were you thinking Daryl! " I yelled

"I was freaking worried as SHIT for her, carl, wouldn't you?" "yes and I was, until she told me why she did and that she stopped awhile ago." "she didn't stop awhile ago she stopped recently, I saw her wrists they aren't that old, carl, they are new." he said crying. "oh my God, oh my God." I whispered running to our cell. "SPYRYTE" I yelled searching for her. "Spyryte where the hell are you." I yelled worried. "in here" her voice crooked from an empty cell. I ran up the stairs to her and just hugged her crying saying 'its ok' in her hair over and over again. she sat down and patted the spot next to her for me to sit. "Spyryte, can you tell me something.?" I asked. she nodded slowly. "ok now why did you lie to me?" "because I didn't want you to freak out" "Ok just go to sleep now." I whispered as she nodded laying down.

~~Spyryte's P.O.V~~

I couldn't fall asleep so I laid with him hearing his soft breathing letting me calm down. I sat as I watched the sun rise slowly humming 'sight of the sun' in my head. peacefully falling into a nightmare filled sleep.

"don't look down just cut"

"don't be afraid be happy"

"no one liked you anyways"

This is what I woke up to, the haunts of cutting. I sighed and got up without waking Carl. I walked to the kitchen grabbing a steak knife.

~~Carl's P.O.V~~

I woke up and Spy wasn't next to me. I got up and walked to the kitchen to see if she was there. "SPYRYTE NO PUT IT DOWN" I yelled as I walked in on her putting a knife to her wrists crying yet smiling. "carl leave, let me be." she said backing away with the knife still against her wrists. she dug the knife into her skin while screamed for help and running to her. I pulled it away as she screamed and started balling her eyes out. not literally though. I sat with her till everyone came out freaked about what happened.