Ava's Travel Diary

Chapter 11

So, me and Leo started fucking every chance we could get, before work, after work, days off, lunch breaks. Yes, I can see why you wouldn't see this as a healthy relationship. But that's just it, we're not in a relationship, we are just having sex.

This was the page that I was on and I had hoped the same was for Leo. After a while though, the abrupt, confident guy I met at the speed dating event had dimmed slightly, and he started to want to go on dates. If he didn't want to go out for a date, he wanted to cook me dinner and watch a movie. This was really sweet. I can appreciate this is what I would love to have in a relationship but I'm not going to be here forever. Amsterdam is my current home, I would never ask or expect Leo to leave here for me. I also wouldn't want him too. This trip is for me time, it's for me to figure out what I want from life not what 'we' want.

The bluebell was also getting tedious, I saw myself leaving Amsterdam real soon. I've been here for 3 months and I would say that is more than enough. This trip is only supposed to take me 6 months. I cannot waste anymore time. I would leave tomorrow morning.

As I leave my keys on the front desk, I feel a sense of relief and excitement. I don't feel an ounce of sadness at leaving here or leaving Leo. I have loved my time here and learnt so much about myself already. No regrets.

And just in case you were wondering, I didn't tell Leo I was leaving. I ponder this thought whilst I lay back in my taxi, on the way to the airport. I hope Leo finds love, lord knows he deserves it. Plus, he is fabulous at sex.