HunHan: Enough ¦ 슬픈 사랑 Series

05: breaking point

"He had a scheduled flight back to Japan."

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Luhan inhaled the Japan air as he made his way out of the airport. Pagkatapos sabihin sakanya ng investigator na bumalik sa Japan si Sehun, mabilis pa sa alas-kwatro nyang ibinaba lahat ng kailangan nyang gawin at bumili ng ticket pa-Japan.

If Sehun doesn't want to tell him, then he's the one to seek for the answer himself.

He might be low to do this but he's willing to go down his pedestal rather than get humiliated obliviously.

He has a pride but he knew when to lower it and keep it at the same time.

He asked the investigator to stop for at least a month dahil alam nyang alam ni Sehun na may nag mamanman dito, but clearly he doesn't know that it was an investigator dahil kung alam nito, matagal na syang tinawagan ni Sehun. He might be thinking it was just a paparazzi.

Then when Sehun lowered his guard, he finally got what he wanted-Sehun to lead him directly to the guy.

Binasa nya ulit ang e-mail ng investigator sakanya. Sehun was staying in a hotel, and just came here, yesterday. Nalaman nya rin na hindi ito nag booked ng hotel room, it was another person. Clearly someone's staying there before Sehun even get to Japan.

It was that easy.

But somehow the hardest part is how he might react when he sees the guy. He has to compose himself, he has to control his emotions, and most importantly, he has to stay strong no matter what.

Kahit na mas may itsura pa yon kaysa sakanya, mas mabait, mas matalino, mas magaling sa kama, fuck he has to control his insecurities, dahil hindi nya alam kung anong gagawin nya kapag nakita nya 'to.

Nag-taxi sya papunta sa kaparehas na hotel and check-in on the same floor. The investigator gave him the exact room number and the exact time the guy who checked-in went out most of the time.

The investigator spoon fed him the informations he needed, it's all up to him now. He can't make any excuses anymore or delay the whole thing, kahit gaano kasakit, o ka-nakakahiya man 'tong gagawin nya, he has to do it.

Hindi nya alam kung paano pakakalmahin ang sarili pagkaupo nya sa kama, dahil holy shit, ito na yon.

Hindi nya alam kung gagawin nya na ba ngayon o bukas, o pwedeng wag nalang, really this is the hardest part. Paano nya ko-komprontahin si Sehun. Paano nya aayusin to? Paano nya aayusin ang sarili nya.

He slept that night feeling exhausted, not from the flight, but from his thoughts running inside his mind.

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Nagising sya ng 5AM, a rare thing before but now is too familiar that his body doesn't even need an alarm clock anymore. From all the work in the company and all the things he has to settle, nagkaroon na sya ng sariling body clock. His mind working even at this early morning.

Sinubukan nyang matulog ulit pero hindi na kaya ng katawan nya, and he can't swim right now dahil masyadong maaga, it's cold out there.

He can't jog too and he doesn't want to go to the gyms. Kaya kinuha nya ang laptop at saka nag browse ng kung ano-ano, he stumble upon Sehun's old movies, batang bata pa to sa mga yon, but familiar. So familiar.

Pero bakit ganon, mas kilala nya pa nga 'tong Sehun na 'to, kaysa sa Sehun ngayon. He became too unfamiliar.. Gusto nyang sabihin na bumalik na 'to sa dati because he clearly wasn't who he is.