Me....

what's Up With My Life

For starters, my life isn't that interesting. I mean...I go to school, I "learn", I hangout with people i'm close to, head home to watch Kpop videos, pinterest....and if I feel social... snapchat hehe

Currently, it is summer and I haven't done much... well, I went to Vegas for 4 days and saw a bunch of strippers who were winking at me.... but anyways MOVING on, I've suddenly been thinking about.....well, love and all that mushy stuff.  Like, EEEWWWWW they're holding hands and at the same time, WOOOOAAAAHHHH wonder what that feels like.

I'm personally a wuss when it comes to telling my crush I have feelings for them and just talking to them is such a STRUGGLE! I don't get it.... like, HORMONES CLAM YOUR TITTIES DOWN! And YOU KNOW your crush is going to find out you like them when they ask you stuff like, "you look really red right now....are you okay?" or "you look nice today, what did you do this weekend". And lastly, the most obvious question that is bound to expose you, "your so cute when you get mad" AAAAAAGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!

At least that's how I see it. 

It's not that I don't want to fall in love or something like that.... I guess the problem is.... my self confidence and that good stuff. You know, my mom always told me that before you tell your crush you like them, you always feel like your guts and bones turn into jello. And it is most logically true. Sometimes I wish I can be Poison Ivy and kiss everyone I see without giving a shit ( I would just kiss my crush though in this situation). Or Harley Quinn doing crazy stuff for love and everyone else consider that... normal.

I love villains more than superheros. Wanna know why? Because villains come from nothing until they see something.... and when they see it, they WILL kill, lie, destroy, betray, and lose everything to get what they want and call it theirs. Instead, superheros see each other, fall in love but realize they can't be together because the world wouldn't accept it, or because they are too different and their priority is to save the world. But in most movies....it's because they are scared. which is completely relate able. But wouldn't you love it for that someone to do anything for you, no matter what cost. That they turn against the world just for you. that they only see you as their cure and reason to live for. 

I know it sounds creepy, but lets face it. Love is proven to make people do the most craziest things in life! You don't think when your in love. I believe that's the beauty of it. 

So in other words....I am looking for a psychopath to be my partner in crime <3<3^^