Gloss . h.hj + k.sm [DISCONTINUED]

its been a while...

Where do i even begin guys. there's so much i want to say so this may be rather long. my book "gloss" has gotten to 15K and i can't even express how thankful i am for all your comments, love, support, likes and follows. you all have really helped to shape who i am as a writer and how i'm able to interact with you guys during the time i'm active on here. once again thank you i love each and every one of you wholeheartedly. <3

As you may or may not have noticed (thats ok i still love you) my recent works haven't been updated for quite a while. around a couple months actually and i don't have anything to say rather than i'm truly and utterly sorry. every day passes and i'm like "oh my god i really wanna update" but then i just can't seem to bring myself to. by dwelling over the book i haven't updated, my creative flow kinda went dry and i just felt awful. i love writing its one of my favourite things to do and i feel it's such a good way to help me express myself and also to destress. you guys have helped me through so much and with all your kind words i really feel strong. thank you. nothing has hurt me more on here than making you all wait so long and i really appreciate your patience.

inspire of it being world mental health day not too long ago, i wanted to address why i personally think i wasn't able to update. over a few years i've been fighting an endless battle with my mental health. sometimes i don't feel happy, sometimes i believe i'll never be happy again, and sometimes i am happy but it just doesn't feel real. going to a therapist has taught me the importance of putting our mental, physical and spiritual wellbeing above anything  else. i hope you guys can understand that dealing with severe issues or going back to previous ones doesn't put me in a stable position to release work that i'm truly happy with and the reason i write on here is for you guys as much as it is for me. i put my work on here having been filled with excitement days prior to writing it. releasing it gives me a giddy feeling i can't express bc i think of all you guys getting soft or laughing or crying over my writing and i can tell you now i miss that feeling of immense joy so much it's unreal. having to deal with personal things isn't fun and disappearing from a platform i admire and love so much makes me feel awful.

i want you all to know that i'm doing a lot better than i was three or four months ago and that i really just want a fresh start. i know since i've been gone i may have lost readers or followers but either way i'm happy to get back on track. i've missed the feeling of replying to comments, writing on my message board, reaching numbers i never thought were imaginable and now i want to return with a fresh sense of confidence, happiness but the same feeling of familiarity. i'm still the same author m i was a while ago. i'm prepared to work hard on my writing and am determined to not let you down again.

aswell as their being good news of my return there's some bad news. i will be discontinuing gloss. i feel that i've lost the story line a bit and if i update no one would remember what happened. i'm leaving it up to you guys to make whatever ending you want and you can even send it to me if you wanna write a short or long finale/paragraph. it can end however you like; gory, cute, soft, crazy, angsty . anything you want. maybe i'll publish some in a little mini book as like a memento to my old works irdk it's whatever you guys want. i just wanna give you the chance to finish it bc ik how annoying it is when you're enjoying a book but the author just leaves wattpad, never finishes it or deletes it (i won't be deleting it don't worry loves). the book to me just isn't worth updating and i really want a fresh start. i'm excited to start brainstorming story lines, trying new formats and including different kpop groups aswell. i hope you can support and respect my decision and be happy for my coming works. luckily i'm on midterm break soOoo i can update and have some time to concentrate getting into the flow before school  starts again. school got in the way of me updating aswell as i've been struggling to catch up in some classes and my workload gets out of hand. it's something i'm working on and this year will try hard to find a balance between.

some final words i guess would be that i'm really grateful to be part of such a loving community and to have been cared for and appreciated through my writing. i've experienced so many amazing things and interacted with so many of my amazing readers or mutuals. you all mean so much to me and can't wait to return with something i'm genuinely proud of and have the motivation to continue. i also wanted to say a big sorry for how i disappeared with no context or warning and how i didn't think to just mark the book as on hold to keep things a big settled. i want to let you know i still read and go through all my notifications and am really thankful you managed to stay somewhat active while i was gone. you're all so special to me and i can't wait to have a fresh start and a new book in the works. i love writing and i love all of you so thank you for being the best readers i could ask for and thank you for getting gloss to 15K THATS SOMETHING I ALWAYS DREAMED OF AND I ALWAYS REMEMBER WHEN I REACHED LIKE 100 AND THOUGHT IT WAS A GOD GIVEN BLESSING BUT THIS THIS IS JUST UNREAL ILY ALL WITH EVERY OUNCE OF ME.
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see you soon my loves; author m.