Diary of A Wallflower

Chapter 9

(Jade's P.O.V)
Kian and I ended up falling asleep in his bed. I woke up on top of Kian and his arms were wrapped around my waist. I decided to enjoy this moment and lay there. I closed my eyes and fell back asleep.
*dream*
"I can't take this anymore. I can't. I just need to leave." Sam said and I started to cry.
Sam is really upset because I still haven't talked and he really misses our mom and dad. He also was dating this girl for almost a year and he found out she was sung him and she never loved him but he loved her so much so he's pretty torn.
"Sam please." I said.
"No! I can't take this anymore! I want to fucking die already Jade!" Sam yelled.
"I need you. Please don't." I said and Sam picked up the gun.
"I love you Jade. I really do. Never forget that." Sam yelled and pulled the trigger.
*end of dream*
I work up and screamed as loud as I voids which wasn't really that loud. It was loud enough for Kian to hear it and maybe some of the other boys but since I haven't screamed in forever its hard.
Kian shot up of out bed and I started to cry. I got up and ran to Sam's room and Kian followed me. Sam must've heard my non loud scream because he was already up when I got into his room. I ran into his arms and hugged him. I started bawling my eyes out and Sam carrying me to his bed. He sat me on his lap and rocked me back and fourth.
"She just screamed and ran to you." Kian said when he got into Sam's room.
"Ok. I'll take care of her. Get some sleep. I'll take her back in your room when I figure out what happen." Sam said and Kian walked off to his room.
I cried even harder at the thought of losing my brother.
"Shhh. What happened?" Sam asked.
"Y-you couldn't take it." I managed to say.
"Take what?" Sam rubbed my back and spoke.
"Everything. Y-you killed yourself." I said and Sam kissed my head.
"Jade. I'm not going anywhere." Sam said and pulled away so I could look at him.
His eyes were glossy so I could tell he was worried.
"Don't l-leave me here alone." I whispered and cried harder.
"I'm not going anywhere Jade. I'm right here. I plan on staying here for a while ok? I don't want to give up on you and leave you here alone and scared." Sam said and hugged me again.
"I love you." I whispered.
"I love you too sis. I love you so much." Sam replied and kissed my forehead.
After I calmed down a bit, Sam carried me back to Kian's room. Kian was awake still.
"She had a nightmare about me killing myself." Sam sigh after he put me in Kian's bed.
Kian gave Sam a 'I understand and I'm sorry that you feel like that again' look.
After Sam left I decided to ask Kian.
"D-do you know about Sam?" I asked and Kian nodded.
"Yes I do. He's been sad for quite a while now but don't tell him I told you. He's trying to he strong." Kian said and I nodded.
Kian pressed his lips to mine and pulled me on top of him and we both fell asleep.
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Hey! was this good? I hope so. Well it's 2 am so goodnight!
Love u all!