Diary of A Wallflower

Chapter 62

(Jade's P.O.V)
When I crawled into bed last night I instantly fell asleep. I ended up having a dream about getting a new house and living on my own and I guess I started to smile about it. It was pretty awesome. I heard nothing last night because I was in such a deep sleep. The dream was pretty cool.
Anyway, I woke up with Taylor underneath me. I got out of bed and decided not to wake Taylor since he's probably exhausted. I showered and did my routine, then walked downstairs where I found Sam, Kian, Andrea, and Acacia. I sat down on the couch next to Andrea and Acacia and we talked a little. I've missed hanging out with the girls. All of this drama happened and took up my time to do anything with anyone.
Taylor came down and his hair was how it normally was.
"Good morning." Taylor said and his voice was raspy.
His voice is so sexy and he was shirtless which made him even sexier.
Wait, what am I saying? I've never been the girl to say those kinds of things. I've never been the dating type either and now all of a sudden I want to date Taylor. These boys really have changed me.
"Hellooo? Earth to Jade?" Sam said waving his hands in front of my face.
"Huh? What?" I asked and snapped back into reality.
"We asked if you wanted to go to Starbucks with us but you were to busy staring at shirtless Taylor." Sam said.
I blushed and Taylor smirked.
"Sure. Let's go." I said.
"We're going to penny board by the way." Sam said and I nodded.
I went upstairs and grabbed my penny board. We all headed out to Starbucks and Taylor grabbed my hand as we were skating. I blushed slightly and he smiled. I ordered my usual at Starbucks which was a cotton candy frappe. I love it! Taylor is staying here again and so is Acacia and Andrea. All 3 of them stay here a lot and it's fine with me. The rest of the Magcon boys aren't here. They had something to do today so they couldn't be with us. Taylor and I talked a bit at the table we were at and everyone talked amongst themselves too.
"So, are you busy tomorrow Jade?" Taylor asked me.
Is he asking me out? I hope not but I also hope he is. I've never date before and it's a huge step for me. Quick! Think of something!
"Uh, yeah. Andrea, Acacia and I were going to go shopping tomorrow why?" I said and the girls looked at me.
"Oh. No reason." Taylor said with sadness in his voice.
I feel so bad now! I can't believe I just did that. I quickly texted the girls telling them that I thought he was going to ask me out and I freaked but they said we could go shopping because it sounded fun. After we finished our drinks at Starbucks we rode around on our penny boards and messed around. I had lots of fun. I took a picture of Sam and Acaica skating while holding hands and I sent it to them. They're so cute.
We stayed out until the sun went down. It was around 10 pm when we got back so we decided to watch some more movies. We chose the movie The Titanic since it was a chick flick and us girls wanted to watch it. I cocooned myself around Taylor like I did last night and he seemed slightly turned on. I think the little things girls do turn him on like when girls put their hair up in messy buns, when they wear your clothes, when they wrapped themselves around you like a little koala, etc. I looked up at Taylor and smiled and he smiled back at me. I kissed his cheek and leaned my head back on his shoulder.
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After the movie Andrea, Acacia, and I were in tears. Our guys were comforting us and it was really sweet. Taylor isn't my guy so I guess it was just a friend comforting another friend type of thing. I want to he more than friends but I don't want to get hurt again, I've never had a boy friend before, and Im not the dating type I guess. Dating would seem awesome though because I'd have someone to hold me at night and everything but Taylor has been a jerk to me but we can't keep cuddling and saying we're "just friends" because we obviously want to be more.
"Are you guys a thing yet?" Kian said and looked over to Taylor and I.
"No. We're just friends." Taylor said.
Ouch. That hurt but it's true.
"Well I don't think cuddling, hugging all the time, flirting, and blushing every time you're around each other is "just friends." That's my opinion though. Maybe I'm wrong." Kian said and I started to blush and so did Taylor.
"See! You guys are blushing now! Just go out already." Andrea said.
I don't want a relationship. Well I do, but I don't. I don't fall in love, I run away from it. It's scary because I've been hurt so much and if anything happened I'd probably end up dead this time and Sam would be miserable and I can't have that. Can't people see I'm happy the way I am?
Everyone kept pestering Taylor and I and it was getting on my nerves. I finally stood up and flipped.
"Just stop! I don't have to be in a relationship just because I like somebody! I'm happy the way I am and that's final!" I yelled and stormed upstairs to my room.
God they piss me off sometimes! It wasn't really necessary to freak out like that but they were pissing me off. I heard a knock on my door and Sam came in.
"Hey, sorry for pestering you and everything. I didn't mean to make you angry." Sam said and I hugged him.
"I should be sorry. I shouldn't have freaked out like that." I said.
"It's ok. I still love you little sister." Sam said.
"I still love you too big brother." I said and Sam left my room.
It's around midnight now and I'm pretty tired. I brushed my teeth and then sat in my bed for a little bit thinking. What should I do about Taylor? I think he was going to ask my out earlier but I don't know. I should've just said it didn't have anything planned and let him talk but noooo I just had to hurt his feelings! God I'm such an idiot.
I decided to just lay in bed and try to sleep everything off.
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