just for the summer

6. comfort

Lucas POV

i woke up to see her laying next to me, her back exposed due to the lack of clothes and her hair messily covering her face. i push it away, admiring her even when she doesn't try. our argument had led to us being official and us having sex, which i never intended for but it was better than anything else i've ever had. the argument made my throat burn, knowing that she was angry with me and how easily things could go downhill. i never wanted to leave her at the café but i knew it was better than saying something out of anger that resulted in her no longer wanting anything to do with me. i run my fingers across her flawless face and make my way down her back, scratching her back lightly while she sleeps. her eyes soon began to flutter open, revealing her vibrant blue hazel eyes that always left me mesmerized. she lightly smiles, her eyes still tired as she rests her hand on my bare chest beginning to trace shapes over it.

"i'm falling in love with you." she says with her eyes closed again, my heart rate suddenly increasing as i hear her say the words i was scared id never hear come from her mouth. my mouth stays open as i try to process what she had said, did i hear her correctly?

"i'm falling in love with you too." i say before i can even manage anything else, she places her hand on my cheek and stares at me for a few moments before looking down and sighing.

"we shouldn't have had sex," she says softly, shaking her head before turning back to face me. her features were soft yet they had a hint of something else in them, i raised my eyebrow and waited for her to continue.

"i'm leaving soon." she nods, then it hits me as i realize she's going back to New York soon. i nod, biting the inside of my cheek as she rolls over the back of her head facing towards me. i run my palms across my face, climbing out of bed and pulling on my sweatpants and leave the room. as i go downstairs i see noah who was making something that smelled damn good.

"i thought you'd sleep in later. you had a long night." noah said with a smirk as i shake my head and hide the smile threatening to spread across my face. ava definitely wasn't quiet last night, not that i minded.

"she's going back to New York." i say as i seat myself at the bar stool, rubbing my temple and looking back up to face noah.

"did you think she was gonna just drop college for you?" noah frowns, tossing a strawberry into his mouth before pointing a finger at me.

"i don't know, i mean it would be nice." i shrug, not really seeing the problem in wanting her to stay here.

"nah, that's selfish as hell." noah throws a strawberry which hits me in the forehead, i frown and hit the table top in frustration. i just can't be around her anymore, or else the feelings will continue to develop and it won't end well at all.

i quickly throw on my hoodie that was laying across the couch along with my car keys, jogging out of the house and into my car. i hit the steering wheel before pulling out and onto the main street, my mind telling me to do something i know is wrong but it won't end well if i go with the other option. i pull up to the medium sized house, sighing before stomping up to the front door and knocking a few times. nathan opens the door, smirking as he sees me standing there before motioning for me to come in.

"i need to get high." i plop onto his couch as i hear him clap in success, grinning widely as he goes into the back room before appearing with a small baggie. during this my mind drifts away from ava before quickly returning, telling nathan about her and the whole situation as we lay stretched out on the couch staring at the ceiling.

"too complicated." he frowns, shaking his head as he rubs his temples in fake pain. i chuckle, my eyes feeling heavy as i finish off the rest of the blunt before yawning. i go to talk again but turn my head to see nathan already knocked the hell out, i needed this. i smile to myself as i turn my head back to the ceiling and think about ava. she's too perfect for me to be thinking of leaving her already and making her change her life for me. she doesn't deserve that. i rub my eyes, the old lucas would never think about a girl like this. he would at most consider talking them on a date but never about a future. i thought to myself, stupid third person. before i can manage to rethink my decision i feel my eyes give up and shut completely.

she doesn't deserve this.