Cub Love

4

" Jerrald fucking Ojo!"

Alex almost screamed, with wide eyes.

"Yes, it's Jerrald Ojo, the jock, the mr, popular himself."

I said with the sound of irritation.

I'm currently hanging out with Alex and Mel, in an ice cream parlor, mid day. I told them earlier the incident with Jerrald. And right now I am regretting that I informed them about it.

" He's bisexual right?... Ohhh babe that only means he's into you or he wants a piece of that foiiinneeee ass of yours."
Alex cooed.

I gulped a spoonful of ice cream as I heard what he just said.

"Don't make a fuss about it ..lex.. He's just friendly. We all know that he's just not a jerk. Ok?"

It's the truth though. Jerrald is not your typical jock. Aside from him being oh so good looking. He's just naturally nice and caring. I've never heard of him bullying anyone or being mean to anybody back then.

The only downside, well to me it is a con. Is that he literally dated every single person that he finds attractive. And that is both boys and girls. He's actually a player, jumping from one lover to another without a proper break up or closure. But, I can't blame him though.... He's just so attractive and appealing that people just jumps on him, pushing their selves into him. He doesn't even have to try.

But, again despite all of that. He is a good person. He helped a lot of times during high school. And one might think that Jerrald has a thing for him/her if he does that. However, I've seen him do that to almost everyone. He will give you a helping hand if he seen you needing one. As I was going deeper on my thoughts about him.

Mel decided to add up on the conversation.

" But, will you go if he invited you to hang out?"

" First of all, It has been a week since the Jerrald, incident happened.

To me that's a clear sign that It will never happen"

Yes, It has been a whole week since then, and I've never received a single text from him. Why am I feeling sad and disappointed? when I always know that it will never happen. He's just being nice that time. Jerrald would never want to be with a person like me.

" Van, I can totally see from your face that right now, your pitying your self again." Alex spoke.

Well there goes my mid reader friend. He's not one of my best friends for nothing.

After finishing our ice creams, we headed out for a little walk since it's sunny and windy outside.

" Hey, Van.. It's the weekend again. Wanna go out tonight with us?"
Mel asked while putting is arms around my shoulders.

" Clubs is not my thing, how many times do I have to say that Mel?"

"I know, I know... It's just that.. Our trip isn't complete without you. We miss hanging out with you"

"Right Alex?" He asked turning to the other guy.

Alex just gave us a nod..

" I also feel the same way guys. But those places that you love to hang out just isn't for me." I said looking down.

I hate this feeling. I don't want to let them down. I hate that my anxiety is hindering me on being with the people I care about.