Eddsworld angst shots

Ugly

Tord was sitting alone in the room he shared with his boyfriend, Tom. Tom was downstairs at the moment spending time with their friends but Tord on the other hand couldn't bring himself to leave the room. He was sat in front of the mirror they have up on the closet door. Tears flowed out of his eyes as he examined himself. Stupid freckles dotted his cheeks and shoulders. He hated them. Tom always says how much he adores them but deep down he knows he's being lied to. Tord was never used to receiving compliments or praise. He's never known anything but pain and suffering that is until he met Tom. The first time he met Tom he had just moved to England from Norway and it was the beginning of freshman year. So he had the normal anxiety of being a teenager going to a new school and also the language barrier because his English was not the greatest. Tom has such a kind heart though. He aided Tord to learn English. He made Tord feel like someone understood him so of course he fell head over heels in love with Tom. He kept it hidden, thinking it was just a phase and it would fade with time, but it never did. In fact his feelings only grew more intense as the years went on and as the years went on Tord decided to mask his emotions by being cruel to Tom. Always taunting him and bullying him. Tord also slept around and went through many different relationships. They all abused him and left him even more broken than before but tord knew he deserved the pain because he put the one he truly loved through so much pain he deserved nothing but pain and hatred thrown his way. One day Tom confessed to him that he was madly In love and Tord just broke into tears explaining everything to him. That was the first time in a long time Tord felt pure joy. Unfortunately even now that he's had a seemingly happy story he still hates his own guts. Still looking in the mirror he pulls off his t-shirt to reveal many scars littering his pale skin. Some from fights, or his abusers but some were his own self harm. He poked at his scars, considering adding more to his Collection. He kept sobbing as he examined himself Tom doesn't love you why would he ever love a freak like you?He's lying so he doesn't have to feel bad the walls are thin Tord he could hear you crying yourself to sleep he pitied your pathetic ass. Honestly just end your life he wouldn't even care you would be making everything so much easier on him if you ceased to exist. The voices whispered. "I'm so ugly and useless i really should just do it" Tord mumbled through tears as he stood up to grab his pocket knife. He slices the skin of his stomach open and squeezes it to watch the blood pool faster. He was so invested in this he didn't notice his lovely Tom came to check on him. Once Tom saw what his boyfriend was doing he freak out and ran over to him. He hugged him tight and took away his knife. Tord just started bawling into toms soft hair. Tom rubbed his back and just whispered quietly to him to comfort him. Tord always found toms voice to be the most soothing thing out there. Especially when he would sing. Toms voice was like melted chocolate it's so warm and sweet. Tord could never get enough of it. Tom brought him to bed and got his boyfriend cozy. He then made tord explain everything his thoughts, all of it. They spent the day in bed with Tom singing to his boyfriend and just making him feel better and tord can confirm it helped greatly he no longer relied on his knife for comfort

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This is an O L D draft that I finished up also I'd like to say that I see tord as the more dominant one in their relationship but like sometimes tops feel like shit and just need to be babied by their little boyfriends to feel better yknow