The Amazing Arts

Body Shaming? (Rant)

OKAY, this was going to be about my voices in my head picture but then I decided to go a different route
Every one has probably heard of it once
I think it's called body shaming
Most tweens or teens so this as they compare their bodies to super models.

To be honest, I have never done this. In fact, I looked at the cover of a magazine with a model on it. And I was just looking at it to point out the flaws in what she was wearing.
And there was a rip in the sweater she was wearing. It was by the arm.

Jeez, I'm so tired. 3A.M. here right now.

Anyways, promised myself that I would never compare myself to supermodels.
But recently I have been realizing that I compare my body to other girls my age or older.

And I just gotta say this, they are waaaaaaaay thinner than me. Like, they're on that thin that I wonder if they eat anything.

And, I know I'm not that fat, that if I really wanted to with some hard work I could be thin again

Hell, at one point I wasn't eating as much as I used to. For like one whole year I wasn't eating barely anything.

And there is only one picture of me that I know of that shows me in that state.

And it only shows my face and my top portion of my body and this was back in I am gonna say 5th grade?

Anyways, I'm semi fat.
I could be recognized as thin but not by much.

Anyways, I'll be talking to my online friends and I'll or they'll say something about my body and I immediately tell them that I am either fat, ugly, or some shit like that

Well. That's how I see myself. Every time I take off my shirt I look myself in the mirror and then I look down at my stomach.

All I think of when I do this is how can I get rid of all this? That and I just want to rip off all this fat.

It's not good. Just the top portion of me I absolutely hate, Despise.
The bottom half, like my ass, I find looking good.

Like these girls have these generic voices, and I don't (and I love that)
I'm fine with that
But those thin bellies.

I don't know. I tried dieting but I just don't know what is wrong with me

Well, now I will need to go on a diet cause my brothers cholesterol is really bad and my mom is making everyone go on the diet with him.

But yeah.
Oh
And I hate my face
It's so round
And.....

I hate it

Ugh

Fuck everything

FUCK LIFE!

I JUST WANNA GET RID OF THIS BELLY AND BE HAPPY

AAAAAH