This story is about a 15 year old transgender and gay boy living with anorexia. TW: please don't read this if you are in anyway triggered by talk of anorexia self harm depression anxiety or anything to do with eating disorders. My goal isn't to pr...
I don't know why i'm like this. I'm a healthy weight now why do I have to keep loosing? But I know I will never be happy till you can see every bone in my body. Until my thighs don't touch and my collar bones dig into people I hug. My goal it to weigh 110 pounds but i know I will not be happy till I reach 0.
"ELIZEBETH!!!"
My eyes flew open and I picked up my head.
"Um actually Sir, its Elliott now.."
"ugh Yes of course Elliott.." He said in disgust "Do you think it is appropriate to sleep in my class Elliott."
"No Sir, Sorry Sir" I replied quietly as my class mates laughed at me and whispered rude slurs about me to each other.
"Don't let it happen again" He said pressing play on the video from "Bill Nye The Science Guy" once more.
I sighed and looked down at my note book. Addition and subtraction problems filled the pages even though I was in science class. The problems were from me trying to plan a dinner i would not surpass 300 calories with.
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My plan was to break my now 48 hour fast with 2 egg whites 34 cal 2 pieces of toast 140 cal and 2 tbsp or grapes jelly 70 calories for a total of 244 calories. It is quite sad I could plan this in school without having to look up calorie amounts on on the internet I just know how many calories are in things.
The bell rang as the video ended and I stood up grabbing my bag and walking out the door as fast as I could and walking down the stairs to the exit of the school. I passed the buses and started my 3 mile walk home. I was expected to ride the bus but Mondays and Tuesdays i was the first home so My mom and brother would never know i walked. Plus it would burn off most of my dinner.
