construing sentences

tired

tonight, you're probably living your dream somewhere near the west coast.

while i'm just here, letting another life of mine pass by. 

i vaguely remember the way your hands held me when you left that day.

it was all too painful and wonderful, at the same time. 

i wished you had kissed me longer, hugged me a little tighter, and told me things that meant much more than it should.

i wanted you to give me more hope than i had imagined.

but you didn't.

why can't you lie to me? 

tell me you'll come back, tell me you'll be here before i even know it.

it was easy enough to say, you know?

but that's not what you told me.

you said you wouldn't look back, you said you might never even see me anymore.

i've never been hurt that way before, i've never felt such immense pain.

won't you tell me where you are tonight?

give me a call or send me a letter?

because tonight, i'm just sitting at the edge of my bed, tired of wishing on the stars.

simply tired.