soft spot // zhong chenle

5.

the last class ended, so i started to pack my bag and get ready to head home, but the second i left the classroom, someone pulled me to the other side of the corridor. i looked up and saw eunbae.

'hey, mun!'

she seemed oddly cheerful.

'hey eunbae...why are your so happy?'

'oh, uhm...i've actually got some news!'

weird. i remember her being the saddest girl at school up until yesterday, but now...

'me and chenle broke up.'

i stare at her in shock, trying to process what she had just said. it felt like i've lost my ability to talk. i wanted to say something, ask something, but couldn't. all of the things in my brain started to mix up, which never actually happened before.

'wait...what?!'

'yea. i finally decided to do this. he was really ignorant towards me for the whole school year, i don't really know why though...so i though that he lost his love for me, and i decided to finally let go. who even am i, to keep a person attached to me, when he probably has feelings for someone else?'

my shock doubled. so she actually doesn't know why chenle was acting weird this whole year?

'you are not even the slightest bit sad?'

'no, no, uhm, i'm not!'

liar. she lied. she still loves him. she turned away from me for a second, which was obviously to wipe away some tears.

and why do i feel so guilty for this? if i'm not even the reason for their breakup? well, i kinda am, but the problem is not with me, it's with chenle. and eunbae doesn't even know i'm the one who made chenle drift away from her.

that means...i'm actually guilty..?

'UGH!' i groan and hit the locker right beside me. nothing makes sense anymore. what is the point of saving chenle, now that him and eunbae are not together anymore? i know she still misses him, but i'm so tired. i don't want to have to do anything with this situation anymore. i just want to feel normal
again...

if i really want to be left alone, i have to confront chenle. watch him in the eye, and speak face to face. i have to tell him about my feelings, and that he must stop.

i'm doubting this will help though...