you felt stupid to even think you had a chance with bellamy, you knew about his reputation he had with girls since the dropship had landed. he used girls for his own pleasure without really caring about them or their feelings and you didn't know why you thought you would be any different.
at first you had tried to keep your distance from him, you knew he didn't care for any girl except octavia. but after his desperate attempts to charm and flirt with you, you had given in. you and bellamy had been spending what you thought was genuine time together, going on night walks and sitting by the campfire at night talking about things that could range from anything to nothing. sometimes each others company was enough. bellamy shared the details of his past life on the ark with you, he talked about his mother, how he tried his best to look after his sister and how he was training to be guard. in turn you shared what your life had been up on the ark as well. you thought what you had together was special as he had stopped having girls walk out of his tent in the mornings.
this all changed the night where you decided to check on bellamy in his tent, you hadn't seen him all night and it was beginning to worry you. from what you could see it was only him in his tent by the outline of his body illuminated by a nearby fire. making your way to his tent you must of missed the quiet moans coming from inside because as soon as you walked in you caught bellamy underneath a random blonde girl in the middle of taking her top off.
tears threatened to spill from your eyes but you held them back, you felt like yelling at him but it's not like you could be angry at him. you weren't dating and you knew that, you also knew that he was free to do whatever he wanted with other girls. but none the less it still hurt to see him with another girl.
bellamy's head snapped to you and his eyes widened, his hands dropped from underneath the girls shirt and he quickly scrambled out from underneath her. he stood shirtless in front of you with guilt plastered all over his face.
'y/n i...' bellamy trailed off, he didn't have the words to explain himself.
you shook your head and cast your eyes to the ground.
'sorry bellamy, i didn't know i was interrupting something.' this was all you could manage to get out before turning on your heel and waking out the tent. you ignored bellamy's calls for you and allowed the hot burning tears to finally spill from your eyes. you walked through the camp towards the wall the surrounded it, you successfully located a small gap in the wall and sprinted into the dark forest. you knew what you were doing was reckless and stupid as you had run outside the camp with no back up and no weapons but at the moment you didn't really care. without knowing where you were going you kept running until you found yourself on the edge of a river.
you dropped to your knees and let out a few silent sobs that you had been holding in, you didn't think getting close to bellamy meant getting hurt this much. you brought your knees up to your chest and dried your eyes, the forest was silent and the only sound that could be heard was the water running along.
you were too caught up in your own thoughts to notice bellamy's figure carefully walking to yours. the sound of a twig snapping underneath bellamy's foot was enough to make you turn your head and quickly stand up getting ready to run if needed. bellamy raised his hands in defeat,
'it's okay, it's only me.'
letting out a sigh of relief you crossed your arms back over your chest and turned your head back to the river. making his way over to you bellamy noticed your eyes which were red and watery, he felt extremely guilty as he knew he was the reason behind your pain. a minute of silence passed between you before bellamy finally spoke up.
'i'm sorry.'
you turned to look at him,
'what for? you weren't doing anything wrong, i just walked in at a bad time.'
'you know it's more then that i saw your face when you saw us and i can't help but feel bad. i know we had something and like usual i had to and screw it up, i really like you y/n, you're something special'
you turned your head to look at him,
'then why did i walk into your tent to see you about to fuck another girl?'
it was bellamy's turn to sigh,
'i've told you about how i get with feelings y/n, i got scared okay? i care about you more then i probably should and it scared me because it got me thinking about how i wouldn't be able to function if something were to happen to you. so i tried to get rid of my feelings by using another girl which i realise now is stupid because you're pretty hard to shake.'
both you and bellamy smiled at his statement, you turned your head and placed your eyes on his chest and bellamy placed his hands on your hips.
'promise me bell that you won't do that again, because i really like you too and i really don't want to feel that kind of hurt again.'
bellamy slowly brought his forehead to yours and whispered his promise.
'i promise that you will be the only girl that i'm with, i promise to protect and take care of you and i promise that i will try my absolute hardest to keep you from any type of pain.'
instead of answering him verbally you pressed a hard and long awaited kiss to his lips, the only way to describe the feeling was magic. kissing bellamy felt like everything good rolled into one kiss, he ran his fingers through your hair and you swore you could have melted right there.
pulling away bellamy held your hand in his as you walked back to camp, inwardly smiling to yourself as you had finally gotten the man of your dreams.
a/n - sorry this took so long to update but i've been super busy, remember i take all requests!
