This Girl

Six

Within the next few days Allie was completely settled in and even though we didn't talk much I still make a profile for her:

Long blonde hair with a pink streak (I think is fake because it doesn't seem to be fading) about 5'4, green eyes, slim, and she's a lot like Mia even tho Mia has short brown hair brown eyes and is built more, their personalities are alike. Funny, outgoing, up lifting to be around, but Mia can be loud and Allie stays quiet for the most part.

It's crazy because I can see all the reasons I like Mia in Allie, but I don't talk to her a lot. I know I know I am in the same room as her when we sleep, but I don't sleep I usually leave the room when everybody is asleep. I haven't sleep at all since she has been here.

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"Hazel? What are you doing up?" Fuck I didn't even realize that she was getting up.

"Linsey good morning to you too, would you like a cookie? I figured it would be a nice surprise!" I don't make eye contact because if I do she will see the dark bags under my eyes. I mess with the cookies removing them from the pan and onto a plate. I got bored an I figured my associates would like them.

"How Long have you been up?" Beaker why do have to ask dumb questions like that?

"Oh um I'm not sure" be polite be polite...

"Really..." fuck I've been comprised, " look at me haze" fuck fuck...

I slowly look at her, honestly she's not that bad looking, she's in her early 30s, mid hair length with brown hair and blonde highlights, that she gets done every other week, she's a lot taller than me seems about 5'8 - ish, and she's not big but not small.

"Oh hazel, can't sleep?"

"Afraid to honestly"

"Why have you been having dreams of them again?" She's hesitant with me now? I don't understand the human emotion honestly it's...ew.

"Not of them just um about really, I don't see them just the room, the farm, and the table." We hear life upstairs.

"We will talk about this later ok?" I nod " now let's make the heard some food."

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We all gather up to group. This is probably the dumbest thing someone could have made, and I know since our talk beak is going to make me talk about feeling and shit...ew.

"Okay who wants to start?" Everyone's here so don't say my name beaks don't! " Allie! Thanks for volunteering!" Ah the look on allies face! She didn't think she was going to have it easy forever did she?

"Oh um okay" she has became more at home here in the last few days so she isn't afraid to speak anymore. "I um haven't had much change since yesterday, I still miss my mom," birth mom not the bitch that was here the first day, her words not mine! "Um I still want her back, I still hate my dad, so yeah.."

"Ok that's fine to feel that way have you ever tried getting in contact with your dad before?" Oh no B that's a definite no she puts all the blame on her dad for her moms death, assuming because I don't know the whole story.

"No. I don't want to because he's never cared about us why would he start now? He's happy with his new family and I just don't want to see him again." Geez what happened...?

"That's understandable."

"I think I'm done now so someone else go."

"Okay who is next?" She looks at me, pauses, sees I don't give any sign of caring, "why doesn't Will go?" Wait..? What? That's odd...

William goes on to say that he had a nightmare of it, man I love that movie, I picked it obviously because I like it nooottt at all because I knew it would scare the shit out of will...ha who am I kidding it was totally because of that! Jammie is roughly the same but she adds how she is been feeling down lately.

James says he misses home and that he couldn't wait to see his family again. Noah he said how much he enjoyed the movie (haha) and that he could go for some food, but other than that nothing has changed.

"Hazel... I do believe it's your go." Fuck i knew it damn

"I um nothing's wrong it been normal"

"Hazel stop it!" Ew fuck you beak.

"Ew okay um I haven't been sleeping, and I make cookies so let's go get dem puppers....yeah?....no...ok" God I fucking hate everyone it this group, beak taught them well they know that we can't leave group without everyone sharing and Mia hasn't. Fuck you Beaker! "Mia you wanna go now?"  Please please!

"Okay tell me why you haven't been sleeping?" Ew Mia that's just wrong turning on me like that!?!? Wow that's low

"Your an ass!"

"Hazel! Language!" Shut the hell up beak ur no fun.

"It's what I do best! Being an ass and stuff!" I hard core glare at her, "Now answer the question!" Ew Mia no why fuck.

"No reason just haven't been feeling it."

"Fuck off and tell us geez!"

"Rude turning on me like that."

"Hazel!!"

"Ok ok dam chill woman! I just when I do I see things."

"Like?" Your a pest Mia A PEST!!

" shit like the farm, the room, the table." Mia gives me a look just like beaker did earlier  and everyone else but does too but theirs is more of confusion. "And that is why I don't like talking about this shit the fucking look it's not bad it's not important! It's going to happen when stuff like that goes down it's not that big of a deal! Chill."

"Shut the fuck up! It is! Fuck Hazel why didn't you tell me! Did you see them..?" Geez...

"No...see it's fine can we stop now?!"

"Yeah Mia go head and share."

And she does, about how her girlfriend and her is getting along well, how she is worried about someone (me) and how she is happy about her date night that's coming up.

With that group is over! Fuckin finally! Geez!

Word count : 1060

( a/n: when I do a/n it's going to be rare but the word count doesn't include them. Anyways can I just point out how relatable Hazel is and how I made her out to be something like how I want to be and what goes on in her head is most likely what I would be thinking in a situation like hers, just she has enough balls to say things I never could. Also I'm super sorry for all the mistakes this story has I'm an amateur and idek why I do this lmao. Oml I know everyone probably hate these notes but I hope y'all like the story so far and have fun!!)