This Girl

TEN

Six hours

SIX. FUCKING. HOURS.

I hate shopping.

With a passion.

Honestly who can shop for that long??
Ugh Amara can that's for sure.

Again like the date me and Allie stayed together (I learned she doesn't mind shopping as long as it doesn't take forever, I understand you need to shop unfortunately).

Amara she bought wayy to much like 50 things from every store! Allie bought a few jeans, some ripped some not, a few shorts that practically look the same just different colors, shirts of all kinds, and a pair of vans, a pair of heels (even though she rarely wears them from what I noticed ), and some boots, and random things from a few other stores like comics and some books. Mia bough a lot of sex toys (totally awkward for me and Allie),  and a lot of clothes. I bought some band shirts from hot topic and Spencer's and some shoes from hot topic, chokers, necklaces, bracelets, books and comics, and a bit of makeup.

Beds...
Best thing ever invented
That's for damn sure

All day walking it's nice to come home (don't @ me k it's ok here) to a nice comfy bed

- Shut up and let me see your jazz hands
Remember when you were madman though you was Batman -

Honestly this song is one of the best I swear I could 100% sing Na Na Na (NANANANANANA) all day every day screaming at the top of my lungs. Mcr is one of the all time best bands (along with tøp, p!atd, and fob)

You know those times a hen you feel like your whole body is going to fall apart because you that tired but as fate would have it you just literally lay in bed can't sleep for the life of you even though you want to so desperately ya can't ?

That's me right.

Geez sleep where is ya dude?

So yes I am laying in bed listening to music so my mind won't go to the dark places.

- I fooled my once with your eyes now honey you fools me twice with your lies and I say,
Sarah smiles like Sarah doesn't care she lives in her world so unaware does she know that my destiny lies with her -

But as always it doesn't stop them.

I could have saved my family from so much pain. I left them without warning for so long, even before I was took I wasn't with them. I honestly don't remember last time I completely was. Even now I feel farther away from them than when I was dead. It's awful but depression sucks.

Then Mia is amazing though everything, and honestly Allie is too. We get along, all of us really. I am happy that I'm here and that I have a few amazing people in my life that are my makeshift family. I have absolutely no idea what I would do without them.

Allie. I honest to god did not expect to become friends with her, talk a bit and awkward small talk sure! But I kinda like (as a friend duh) her. She's really nice we like a lot of the same things and she's an old soul like me. I don't know I'm not sure I actually want to be friends I screw up everything. It's hard making new relationships with humans when all you can do is f things up.

But I think I may just take my chances...

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A/n: ahh the suspense 2 updates in a row?!? What! It's totally not to make up that I haven't written since October 7th haha... (it's the 30th of November sry not sry).
Anyways I just wanted to say happy Christmas 🎄 loves cuz let's be real I'm most likely not going to up date for a bit. Really wish I would update regularly but at this rate once every month is the norm haha (again sry not sry) anyway have fun hope ya get some goodies and all that good stuff !!