Make him happy

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Sadie

It's been two days since the party at Noah's  and haven't spoken to Millie in a while i've been so busy with Finn and today they both shoot mileven scenes..
I text Finn good luck and try to ignore the fact that they will be together...as the most amazing on screen couple

It's been a while and they should be done with filming but I decide not to call Finn... I don't want to come out as clingy.. and besides . Bad news is always the first to come . But I do get a text from Millie saying she's coming over and it truly makes me nervous. Because I know I really hurt her but I also know I need to focus on me now.

Knock knock "come in!"
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Millie makes her way up to Sadie's room .. not really sure what she's even going to say.
"Hey Millie"
"Hello"
Theirs  an awkward silence building up that they both feel but neither is to certain on what to say to brake it. Millie has so much she wants to say but can't really pull her thoughts together ... how do you tell your best friend that you're not happy that she's happy .
"I uh ... I should leave I'm sorry .. I just... I don't know what I'm doing here" Millie says as she begins to walk towards the door
" hey no wa-"
"No Sadie I just .. I thought I was ready but clearly I'm not" she says as she tries to not look her in the eyes because Millie knows it will cause her to shed those tears she's fighting
" I love you so much .. you have no idea how much I'm willing to do for you Sadie . I mean honestly ... and for some reason I can't .. I can't let this happen ...... not yet at least " that last bit coming out lower then she intended. She knows Sadie didn't hear it but she doesn't want to repeat her self
"Can we talk?" Sadie says with a really sweet voice . Because they're young and she knows this thing with Finn most likely won't be a forever thing . And she doesn't want to lose one of her best friends because of this ..
" not today" you can hear the crack in her voice no matter how hard she tries to hide it.  " I'm not ready"
And she really isn't
Millie knows she took Finn for granted. She knows she fucked up big time. 1. She's stuck with her absolutely amazing boyfriend whom she loooovvvveeesss(note the sarcasm) and 2. She lost a person she loves and the person she's in love with .. all because she can't let him go . Because they're ment to be together and she knows this ... but she can't say this to her .... any of it because she's not ready and all bullshit aside she feels like she might never be.

She finds her way to her room and she sits on her bed .. not making a sound. Just staring at the pictures spread across her wall held up by fairy lights . "Can my life be a picture? Can my life stop so I don't have to deal with this anymore .. can my older self just look at me an just laugh at the pain because I need my life to stop" a monotone rant blurts out along with tears running down her face . She says this without moving and she stays their all night .. no sleep .. because even though she doesn't have a right to feel this hurt . She does. No one will understand Millie's pain... ever... because no one can ever feel the way she does. It hurts . It truly hurts and she thinks to how Finn must have felt all those months ago . "I'm sorry" she whispers and she feels her eyes too heavy to keep open and she drifts off

"we love each other but me and Finn will...we will never be a thing. Sorry"

Not gonna lie ... did get a little sad putting this together
Poor mills but don't worry I have a plan where everyone is happy ... we'll mostly everyone Let me know what yall think !!! Also,vote?❤️