Jersey High | Grayson Dolan

Five.

I sat up in my room, I wasn't feeling like being early again, I wasn't planning on going at all actually but my mom said I had to. I know that Grayson was going to attack me today for not answering, but I know that I can't be around him if he wants to stay out of my drama. Everything that happened was my fault. I can't just let Jake get away with everything, but by doing something I'm making it worse and giving Jake what he wants. All of my thoughts are spinning around in my head, I'm trying to organize them but they keep spinning

"Jordan!" My mom came bursting through my door. I jumped out of my bed.

"Sorry mom, just got caught up in my head.." I trailed off

"Look Jordan, you're going to have a good day no matter what." She held my shoulder and then motioned towards my closet.

I quickly through on some black leggings and a grey slightly oversized hoodie. I didn't have the time or energy, patience and emotion to do my makeup. I just want to get today over with.

I grabbed my skate board and my bag, I started heading for the door.

"Jordan." My mom called

"What mom?" I yelled back

"Have a good day okay?" I could tell she was getting ready for work just by the sound of her voice.

I opened the door and started skating over to school. It wasn't a very long ride. I listened to music the entire way there, I was actually feeling okay. Nothing was bothering me and it was peaceful. Until Jake's car came speeding in front of me, nearly making me fall off my board.

"What?!" I snapped at him

"Baby, I'm sorry." He apologized, getting out of the car and walking over to me.

"Don't call me that Jake, you know we're not dating." I reassured him.

"According to the fans, we are. That means we have to." He told me

"Jake, not everything is about views and likes, these are feelings, and for you I have none. I never will especially after what you did." I trailed off

"What do you mean 'after what I did'?" He asked nervously, knowing what he did.

"You tried to stab Grayson." I whispered

"I didn't try to, I did stab Grayson." I looked up at him, my eyes were wide, nostrils flared.

"So you admit you did it! You meant to stab Grayson but instead you stabbed Ethan." I whisper yelled, not wanting anyone around us to hear what had went down.

"I jus-" I cut him off

"You just nothing Jake, you tried to stab somebody. That's enough of a reason to why I don't want you. Why I don't like you." I skated off, riding to the front door. I got off once I was about to get inside the school. It felt like everyone was looking at me because of what I was wearing, or lack of makeup that I wasn't wearing. I guess I look really different to them.

I spotted Grayson talking to Ethan down the hall, I pulled my hoodie over my face and opened my locker, putting my board inside. I grabbed a few books and took a different stairwell to get to my class so I wouldn't pass by them. I know I should talk to them, and I really want to but I also know that I shouldn't. Not right now. I want to get Jake off me before trying to re-gain friendship with Gray and Ethan.

As I kept walking down the halls to my art class, I saw Grayson. I forgot that I had a few classes with him. I rolled my eyes and sighed as I walked into my classroom.

"Hood off please, Ms.Fraiser" Mr. Oak called as I waltzed over to my seat, Grayson poked his head up as soon as he said my last name. Gray rushed over to me.

"Jordan, why wouldn't you answer anything we sent?" He sounded pretty sad. My heart kept breaking a little every time I could hear emotion in his voice, but I still didn't answer him.

"Jordan.." He trailed off, putting his hand on my shoulder. It caused me to look up from the ground.

"Why are you ignoring me?" He got more and more sad every time he opened his mouth and I couldn't leave him hanging.

"I can't bring you guys into my issues, Grayson. I told you this already, why can't you just leave it at that?" I sniffled

"Because, you have been one of the most real friend I've had since Ethan, and even though he is my twin brother, he can still be pretty fake sometimes, you know. You were there when it all went down." I grabbed his hand off my shoulder and threw my hand back over my books. I started to look back at the floor.

"Grayson, thanks for saying that but if you consider me a real friend, then let me handle this on my own until it's over." I told him

"That's the problem, because then I'm not being a real friend to you." He hung his head down. I couldn't keep hurting him, because it was hurting me.

"Okay, let's just go sit down before th-" 

*SCHOOL BELL RINGS*

"...bell rings" I continued

"Grayson, Jordan. Please take your seats so that I can start this class." Mr.Oak motioned his hand towards the empty seats right beside each other. I looked at Grayson as he started walking over to the seats, the one next to it was the only one left so I guess I'm sitting with him. 

The rest of the class just consisted of different materials we could use, maybe a few questions. I thought that art would be more productive. How are you supposed to test your skills if all you're doing is learning about it? You have to at least let the kids try.

The next bell rang right as Mr.Oak was finishing the lesson. I scurried out of the classroom and started walking towards my next class. I felt a tight grasp on my arm, I thought it might've been Grayson, until I turned around. It was Jake.

"Hey baby." He smiled, reaching for my hand.

"I said don't call me that." I said taking my hand away from his

"C'mon we would be that YouTube couple that vlogs together!" He whined

"I said no. I don't want to be 'that YouTube couple' I don't make vlogs, I don't care about fame and money like you do Jake. I enjoy making the videos I make. I don't do it for money, I do it for the fans, that come back from their long day to sit down and enjoy my videos." I snapped and before I knew it a crowd started forming around us. Jake quickly took my hand and kissed my cheek when he saw people looking. I saw Grayson in the front. When Jake kissed my cheek, he hung his head down and started to walk away.

I ripped my hand away from Jake's and rushed towards Grayson.

"Gray!" I called

"So, he stabs my brother and you're dating him?" Tears start to fill his eyes, mine do the same.

"Gray, no it's not at all like that I promise I would never hurt you or your brother." I pleaded. "Please just let me explain after school?" I asked

"After school, so you can have time to think of your excuse?" He was starting to get more upset and angry with me. It broke my heart when he was upset, I've never felt this way about somebody. I know Gray is special. He really cares for his brother. I would never do anything to hurt that.

"Okay! Do you want me to explain right here?" I started getting on the same emotional level that he was on

"No need, that's probably what you were talking about earlier in the parking lot right?" he questioned. "How are we going to tell everyone that we're dating after I stabbed Grayson's brother?" He started mocking what he thought we were talking about

"No Grayson, that's not at all what we were talking about, just let me explain. I would never date Jake. That's a promise." I don't think a promise is going to cut it because he looked at me. I could tell that he didn't want to believe me. He shook his head, he hung it as he turned around and proceeded to walk to his next class.

Tears started coming out of my eyes as I saw him walk away. Why didn't I say something when Jake kissed me the first time? All I could do was cry as I stood there, only seeing his shadow disappear after him. I fucked up.