Random Oneshots

Missing You

I laid in my bed in tears thinking of Ace I rolled in my bed all night I tried to deny the fact me and her were never going to see each other again it felt like stepping on a bunch of broken glass and it was never ending I was in so much pain I watched the rain dropped from heaven I imagined them as fire falling from hell burning my roof falling on me instead the pain hurt like a bitch she meant the world we always talked about how we were feeling to each other,she used to send me stories to read,cheer me up when I was down and always found a way to make me smile I was happy at first but all of that changed so fast she was a completely different person after we broke apart she was a monster she completely turned on me and called me names which were true I put on a song missing her I had a tear stream down my face screaming why? Why did you have to leave me? You said we would always be there for me now where are we? I wanted her back so bad I miss everything about us we were the best of friends but all of that dissolved into thin air there was nobody like her I could not replace her or move on my heart still wanted her I looked out the window watching a tear drop fall from my face I definitely did not want this I wanted her and only her I lost my crush,friends,reputation,cool,bravery,strength,love and belief in myself I was completely helpless now I fell to the floor feeling all my depression fill in I gripped the floor tightly so sad that my nails dug in my skin I thought what me and her were was right but I was so wrong I could not hold her like I wanted to,we could not act crazy together like she said we would,I never saw her in the hospital,I never heard her voice again it hurt and I just wanted to pull her close and hug her but I couldn't she was my Portages Girl and I couldn't stand the thought she was gone neither hear she was gone I needed her skin on mine I was so cold without her near it felt like living in Ice I cried for a hour the tears made a huge pool I was to broken to go anywhere I just wanted Ace with me to feel her right near me I could not care less for others but just her I could not feel her touch right on my heart anymore she haunted me in my head I could hear her voice in my head she was haunting me like crazy I was not her Mal anymore I wanted to be her Mal but I can't but she was still my Carlos I would have put my hands on hers back to back and sing with her as the sweet melody runs through I had not heard her melody in years it feels like I loved her so much and I always loved her I wanted to get matching tattoos with her but it seemed impossible now I tried to feel her right next to me but I couldn't I felt my skin slowly get super cold and my insides tearing up I screamed like hell my love for her was crazy I was super attached to her and all she left me were the memories along with some butterfly kisses on my heart nothing else I wish I could have gave her a necklace and she could have gave me one but it did not happen I couldn't feel her heartbeat like I wanted to my heartbeat was broken my heart was really dead I cried and was suffering like crazy I thought to myself am I even meant to live anymore,I should just die,there's no use for me here,Ace would not care if I died nobody will I had no feeling inside anymore my love was lost and I was to I got up in tears the rain stopped I went out and felt the wind in my hair the tears flowing from my face I let the pain kick I was weak and I didn't feel loved anymore I wanted to just die Ace was gone,He was gone I messed up good and I knew everybody hated me everything felt so unreal I couldn't get them back I was not meant to be here god made the biggest mistake to send me down he should have never made me he should've picked someone else I was in the chaos maker and I had nobody I would never find love ever I was a stalker and I had to except that there was no turning back I felt the tears fall to the floor I yelled out at God pissed at him WHY DID YOU SEND ME DOWN HERE YOU MADE A HUGE MISTAKE TO SEND ME HERE!!! Tears fell to the floor my heart always broke whenever I loved they either liked my friends instead of me or they just run away I could not even get Ace back the one I loved so much she wanted nothing to do with me and neither did her family I was alone with nowhere to go I could not go any farther I knew it was going to hurt me I wanted nothing to do with life anymore I'd rather die then go any further I squeezed my hands making a fist I was the devils daughter and I could not escape from his evil clutches I was the spawn of himself I felt like I watched all my tears flow finally ready to jump off and die I stepped up on the edge crying all the memories flashed through my mind I cried harder I finally stepped off falling to my death it didn't feel as bad all it felt like was nothing I finally was gone out of this world and I knew that Ace would not come to my funeral ever this was it for me I was gone for good.