it's complicated- lrh

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     The weekend has unfortunately passed and I still can't stop thinking about the Luke incident. I dont know if I'm over thinking everything and he didn't mean anything by what he said but I just can't seem to agree with that statement.

     Its currently October and I'm already over this  school year already. I'm doing pretty decent in almost every class. English and music are my strongest classes because I actually enjoy what I'm being taught. Writing and playing guitar are two things I dont think I will ever lose interest of. My dad actually taught me guitar when I was eleven years old. My first song on the guitar was Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day. It seems hard I know, but I can take apart complex things and turn them into a simples form. That is a memory I will never forget, and will choose to cherish it for the rest of my life.

      On the other hand, chemistry is making me sick by every single moment, and it's my first period. Definitely not the best way to start off my Monday. Mr. Santiago (you guessed it) is by far the most hardcore, over working teacher I've had in my experience of two years of high school. He gives us little remarks on stupid things that shouldn't even be commented on and it just stresses me the fuck out. I thought teachers were supposed to help you out through the year and make sure you dont fail, not make you over worried and not  understand anything you're being teached.

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I had to be at least presentable for school today so I threw an on old led Zeppelin shirt(I'M SORRY FOR MAKING REFERENCES IT WAS JUST THE PERFECT MOMENT), ripped black shorts, and a pair of grey vans. My style mainly consists of band tees and tumblr-ish aesthetics, if that puts a bit of sense in your mind. I keep the makeup light so I put on some concealer, bronzer, highlight, mascara and a nude lip. For my hair I just put it in a side ponytail and head downstairs to go to a place that haunts me for eternity.

     Michael finally wanted a ride, but who he wanted me to take to school I was not happy about one bit. " 'car you've been pushing me to let you drive me to school for shit, I dont know how long. Why can't you just take me and Luke this one time?" Michael says while squinting his green eyes in a upset way. "You know how I feel about Luke mikey." I say with a long pause and pouting like like a lost puppy at the same exact time. "But, if I drive your asses to school, I want something in return." I say while twirling my hair in a jokingly manner. "Hmm, what might that be?" Michael said sarcastically. "You allow me to go to Sean Conrad's Halloween party." I say while forming a big smirk so that my dimples show. Sean Conrad is actually Jules boyfriend and him and i get along pretty well. We hung out a few times and it kind of shocked me that she went for his persona(he's a jock, and Jules kind of is a badass).Jules begged me to go since I'm not that type of person to attend every highschool party, but I finally agreed to it so she would shut the hell up. "Uh-uh absolutely not. Do you know what could be at that party? Sex? Drugs? Roofies? Offers off the table little sis." Michael says with fury in his voice. "You're going to that party right?" "I mean yeah bu-" "If you're going to the party, as my big twin brother older by three minutes, I may add. You will be there to protect me from all the rebellious jocks and booze right?" "Cara uh I dont know." My brother says while grabbing his book bag off the kitchen counter. "Oh well I guess I'm not driving you and hemmo to school." I say as i walk down my front steps. "Ugh-wait! Fine Cara but you're not getting away with anything at the party." Michael says while stopping me in my tracks. "Thank you thank you I kind of owe you on this one?" I say while hugging my brother tight for a short second so me and him doesn't feel uncomfortable in the moment. "Kind of? Oh you're so in for it Clifford." Michael says while heading to the passenger seat of my car. "I shall see when that so happens Clifford." I say as I let out a genuine laugh. "Cmon get in the car so I can get this over with." I say as I hop in the drivers seat and start up the car. "Shut up you love me and we made a deal and that's that." Michael said by making a fair point that I'm sadly admitting to.