The Diary Of The Broken

The Diary Of The Broken/Chapter 7, Pt 1

It's been over two months since I ended things with Grayson. He still stalks me and send me threatening texts but I try to ignore them.

This Friday is the one year anniversary of my step dad's passing. I can remember that day so clearly. I feel like it was all my fault, if I would have made one different decision he might still be here. Everyone's told me that I couldn't have done anything but I still feel responsible. I don't know how I'm gonna handle this but I'll figure it out.

It Friday morning, I don't even wanna get out of bed. My mom and I decided to have a family dinner. We haven't eaten as a family since my dad's passed so it's just not gonna be the same. My step dad used to cook all of the meals. He was the chef of the house. When he wasn't in the hospital he would cook everyday.

It's around five in the afternoon and dinners done. My mom and I sit down at the table and start eating. I make it about five minutes into dinner until I got up and ran to my room. I couldn't handle looking at the empty chair where he once was.

It's 8pm and my mom comes in my room to check on me. She kept asking if I was okay but I just screamed at her to leave. My mom finally got up and left my room. I was so upset from dinner, I just wanted to end my life but i know that's not the answer. I don't know how I'm gonna make it through these next few months.