Forget the forgettable.

Dream.

Chapter 8-

I was at home sitting in my living room and 4 weeks had passed since that special date with Bobby. Of course I had been on more dates with him recently yet that one seemed most memorable and the others seem to blur specially within it. yet again I had so much information into my body system I could hardly contain it, so I just sat there with another episode of friends whispering in the back ground while I continuously ranted to myself. What a great Friday night.

I've fallen in love. I've always felt I was searching for something or someone and I have found it. More accurately I have fallen in love with the idea of being truly loved by someone, that someone could be Bobby. My mind may corrupt my hearts decisions, but I honestly do not listen to either, I'm simply clueless.

I'm not going to say I'm completely normal, because there is no normal, everybody is different. However to say I have the same qualities as the human normality, would be disregarding any truth. I am weird and I like to believe my weird is respected like how I respect everyone else's qualities, Most of the time.

I go to sleep with a book placed within my hands and I wake up every morning an hour earlier than I should to carry on my dreams by following on reading. Reading somehow isolates my mind and stimulates the dreams and fantasies you could barely dream of.

Let's just say my mind is utterly complex and I dream of bobby being able to understand it one day. Jamie surely didn't he would always throw snide comments about my reading or my uniquely weird habits, but of course I simply took no notice of him as I loved him, I think.

I had to stick to the daily routine of dragging my lethargic body to university and normal day tasks, yet I didn't see what was the point in carrying on my British life when I would soon destroy it by going to Australia.

The date with Bobby was indescribable, as we talked also a lot about America.

I remember one chapter of the special date, as I was laying down looking beyond the skies he held my hand within his gentle grasp and soothingly stroked circles in a hypnotising way on my palm. It was special as it was the first time I felt something, I remember as it was something I had never experienced before within reality or a book. My heart was so peaceful and my body so relaxed as I could feel his eyes transfixed on me.

I just thought to myself, why me. I'm simply beyond plain, I was weird. I have normal light brown hair which reached just above my 2 dimples on my lower back and I could barely be bothered to do anything with it, In fact it's generally up in a tightly annoying ponytail. I have dark brown almond eyes which I despised as when I saw them in my reflection, they felt either sad or maliciously evil, because they were so dainty. It was similar comparison to my utterly boring mouth. I was weirdly boring and that pretty much summed me up .

Nicole text me, which threw me off balance as she never text me anymore. I suppose it was urgent.I was in my deep concentration of thought, yet I put it to the side for a split second.... Hey Lilly was just wondering if you wanted to go out with me this weekend as we Haven't spoken in so long and I need to talk to you about the wedding.

I automatically replied agreeing to meet with her this weekend and suggested the new nandos in town as it was our favourite restaurant and it's compulsory that we keep going.

A sickly punch was lobbed at my undeserving stomach as I was beginning to be filled with nerves. I could never go regularly to nandos with Nicole again. I couldn't go to her wedding. I might not be able to come back because of work. I was going to leave Bobby behind like Jamie had left me. I could never see the beautiful smile on penny's face as I saw her gleaming at me in the mornings. I could never see the nervous child like wave Lucy gave me, when she was imitating something stupid. I could never hear the atrocious singing voices of Victoria or Rosie as we sing as a cat choir with joyous laughter. More importantly I was leaving behind my life and my family.

Before I knew it my breathing seized to exist and I had blacked out.

I awoke in a sterile like hospital with 4 figures staring at me with a gleam in their eyes. It was Bobby, Nicole, penny and Lucy.

Bobby---

'Im so glad you're awake!'

Nicole---

'Do you know what day it is'

Lilly---

'Of course I do.' I said it with reassurance 'it's Friday'

They all looked in horror and confusion.

Penny---

'Ummm Lilly it's Sunday, you kinda passed out and I found you while I dropped your jacket of you lent me that day, by the way thanks for that' she was trying to lighten up the mood with a small smile but it wasn't pulling anyone this time, as their tired faces showed they had obviously been waiting for me to open my dainty eyes.

Lucy---

'We was so worried, we stayed here since Friday, I've even made my own comfy chair bed outside you room. Victoria, Rosie and your family has visited too but they kinda couldn't handle being here, don't worry Lilly everything will be okay .' She was so sweet yet I was disturbed by her sorrowed news.

Why couldn't they handle it, what was wrong with me. At this moment i looked so confused and their angry shouting was shortly grabbing me as my eyes were weeping with tears. I was in so much pain. They were shouting furiously for the doctors as I drifted of into a pain filled sleep again, while I slowly closed my eyes I saw the panic in their feared eyes. Especially Bobby his rough and edgy persona was gone and replaced with sadness. He delicately stroked my face, while the panic was running along with his slow tears.