Your Love (Harry Styles AU)

Happy - Part 10

As soon as the words, 'will you be my girlfriend' left Harry's lips, you froze in place. You had no idea that was coming or that he eve wanted to be serious in that way. You've only known one another for a few days at the most, was that really enough to establish a relationship.

"I... wow," you said looking at him. "Don't you think... I mean it's it sort of too soon for that..."

"Well, I mean we've fucked right off the bat, so how is me wanting you to be my girlfriend any different?" He asked.

"Because I'm not just some normal girl Harry," you said. "It doesn't matter how normal I feel or how normal you see me, but I'm not. And because of that our relationship will never be normal. Are you sure you're ready for what that would entail?"

"Honestly, I don't know, but what I do know is that I really fucking like you and I want to be with you," he said. "But if you... if you don't want to be with me, I'll understand, but just be honest with me."

You sighed shaking your head. "It's not that I don't want to be with you,"

"Then why can't you just say yes," he said. "Am I only good enough to be in your bed but not your heart?"

Harry had turned his back on you and went back to focusing on the food he was cooking. You could tell by the way he moved the spoon around the skillet he was upset and you felt horrible. You walked over to him and wrapped your arms around his waist. You would have put your chin on his shoulder, but he had a lot more inches on you in height, so you settled on pressing your forehead against his upper back.

"It's not like that," you whispered. "I've meant what I said this whole time. What I feel for you, what I feel when I'm around you is something I've never felt with anyone else before. I do have feelings for you and it's not just sexual feelings. I really like you and I want to be with you, but I also know what it would mean for you if we were in a relationship."

"You keep saying you're looking out for me or that I don't know what I'm getting into, but I really don't think that's the real issue," he said.

"What are you talking about?" You asked.

"I'm talking about how you're giving me excuse after excuse on why you don't want to be with me. Do you ever want to actually be in a relationship and be happy because I hate to fucking break it to you Y/N, but you're famous... you're always going to be famous and whatever shit you keep saying is going to happen with us being in a relationship is still going to be going on for the rest of your life. So, unless you don't want to ever be with anyone, then you're more than likely using that shit as an excuse because you're scared of being with someone." He said.

"I'm not scared," you defended.

"Oh, really?" He asked. "Then why haven't you said yes?"

You stomped your foot reactively. "I already told you!"

"Yes, because we'll have to hide our relationship for the most part. I'll have to give up privacy because once I'm declared as a man of yours, everyone will be investigating me and shit and that there'll be rumors and shit, but I already told I don't give a fuck about any of that because I'll be with you and that's all that should matter!" He said.

"Why are you yelling at me?" You shouted.

"Because I want you Y/N!" He said. "I fucking want you and I've never wanted someone like this before and it fucking hurts knowing that I can't have you because YOU'RE too fucking scared that I'm going to hurt you. I'm not like all those other dicks if you've been with okay, and yeah, we haven't known each other for all that long, but I'd at least hoped that you would have figured out that I'm nothing like them."