𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐫𝐲 | 𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐝𝐨𝐥𝐚𝐧

fifteen

Listen to 'Chasing Fire' by 'Lauv'

21:08

It is getting late and I know I should head home.

We'd eaten and finished a couple movies along with another episode of stranger things before Ethan got bored.

I was lead on his chest and could feel myself drifting off.

"Hey E, I think I need to get going" I say looking up at him.

He pulls me in tighter before speaking "Do you have to go, can't you just sleep here tonight?"

Did he really just ask me to stay the night?

I mean I really wanted to, but I couldn't.

"I can't, it's only Wednesday" I reply sighing.

"Fine" he says sadness in his voice.

I felt upset because I couldn't stay, but also happy because I know he cares about me.

We walk down the stairs and he opens the door.

"Thank you for tonight" I say wrapping my arms around his torso.

He rests his chin onto my head.

"Anytime princess, drive safe" he kissed me on the forehead before realising me from his grip.

His words sunk into me.

He told me to 'drive safe', for once I genuinely feel cared for.

And he called me 'princess'.

My heart fluttered, giving me an unfamiliar feeling.

I still had one, that's nice to know.

I smile to him as I get into my car.

He leant against the door and watched me until I could no longer see him from the car mirror.

-

Home.

No, my house.

It's not a home.

It's not like Ethan's, where you feel safe and comfortable.

It's just my place for shelter.

I'm alive here.

I'm not living here.

I already miss his touch.

The way he holds me like he's never going to let go.

I go upstairs and get into bed.

I leave my jumper on which was still strongly scented from his cologne.

I close my eyes and actually drift off.