What had happened in my life

Age 16- stress = nightmares

No intro for once 

i dont know wht happened one minute i was talking with a friend and next thing i know i fell asleep and woke up to a dark room i saw a baby crate and it had my last name i freaked out i didnt know wht to do and started to move away but i was trapped and i was scared so i looked inside the crate and it was a baby but it looked just like me...

i was shaking bc i was scared i mean im thinking "how did i have a child, this cant be real, how just how" thats all im thinking then the child opens it eyes and it was like i looked into a mirror and it was me just as a baby same dark hair, brown eyes, but i didnt see a father there but i didnt think i would have had the child..

but next thing i know is the baby is crying i didnt know wht to do so i picked up the baby to calm her/him ( i didnt know the gender) down and she/he did. i smile but then started looking at the baby and wondered who was the father i couldnt thinking of anything besides of 2 people my ex, harley, and my bf ( i will reveal next time) but it was months since me and my ex and i didnt know wht it could be so i freaked out.... again

i sit down with the baby in my arms and im relaxing a lil bit but i see a man or a shadow figure but i looked and saw the baby in his arms i looked down to see nothing i jumped up and walked backwards again but wht made it worse is the man or figure was walking to me i was shaking from fear and breathing really hard i freaked myself out so bad i started crying and before next thing i know it was the figure was in front of me and i screamed in my dream waking myself up

i woke up crying, breathing really hard, and shaking i was scared i thought it was all real so i texted a friend i call him casper and he told me it was stress bc i have  5 or 6 guys in love with me but i only love one and i didnt think about it until he told me i havent been getting enough sleep i wake up early and i stay up late but what was worse is the stress is going to my dreams and turning them into nightmares... 

many times i want to talk to somebody but i hide behind a make cause its easier to hide then say something both me and casper have hid behind mask to the point its a habit for us to hide when something happens but with me i hid behind it all the time and i fake my smiles most times and nobody sees past it bc i learned how to do it for so long its easy to see others try and fail...

but that is just what happens to me when stress overflows into my dreams and my dreams look real but its really a nightmare.....

thank you for reading i was up late got one hour of sleep and i dont feel tired but i feel scared again thank you for reading i will update when i can thank you and until next time jazz is out~~~