rEaR vIeW (Amnesia _ I Need Ya)

Chapter 19

Louis's Pov

"What is wrong with him?", Niall was sitting right across me when he grabbed his brunette hair aggressively.

He looked ready to pounce on someone with anger. We all have become very irritated in the past few days. Zayn is not himself. We have been talking about it since day one.

But we thought he was heartbroken, and obviously needed some time. Four days have passed and the lad has literally locked himself in his room. He is not talking much with us since that outburst on Harry.

Shirley is the only one allowed in his room without his permission. Rest of us get to talk when he wants to come downstairs or when he asks us to get in.

"I have told you all, he was bound to develop PTSD. Now that Perrie is gone, he has lost all hope of getting better. I will talk with Jacob and see if he can change his medications," she comforted him and scooted closer.

I was just sitting there, thinking of a way to cheer everyone up, while munching on the cookies that Harry baked, correction - stress baked. She glared at me cutely and I stuffed one before keeping it down.

Then I sneakily noticed her grab the plate. Gotcha. Finally, our weepy Niall smiled.

She is our angel. This girl has become our little sister, our family. But her eyes, I always see darkness in them, some bad past. Of course, I never dared to ask her about it.

"Even Liam is upset these days. He pretends to be fine, but never tells us what's going on", I heard Harry from the kitchen. Why does this boy love cooking so much?

When we started living here, I was so excited. But everything is falling apart. And I guess it's time to get my Tommo the leader cap on.

"Guys, what about a party? We can get our families here too! What do you think?", I suggested and their faces lit up.

Niall jumped on his seat clearing his approval. This lad of mine will never change. Leprechaun that he is, I don't think he even ages.

"Alright, we will plan it up. Louis, you go become the elder brother that you are and counsel the two problematic kids", Shirley ordered once everyone agreed.

I nodded and started straight to Liam's room. Well, maybe i'm Tommo the leader but she is Shirls the queen.

Liam's room was really messy which also means that he is in a big crisis.

"Liam? Where are you?", I knocked on his door knowing what solitude means to him.

He peeped across the door and I barged in, only to find him in the towel. So much for his privacy.

"We are having a discussion and you are needed downstairs. I'm sure Harry and Niall will start fighting any moment now", I muttered very seriously and dropped on his bed.

"Fighting? Oh god, what happened now?", the worry in his voice made me lose it and I started laughing hard. He glared at me for a good minute and took that time to get dressed.

"Relax Payno. It will be about the party decoration". I laughed. He gave me a confused look and before I could explain we heard noises from the hall. Thank god Zayn's room is upstairs.

"Pink! We are not 6-year-old girls Harry! It will be green", that was no doubt, Niall.

"And we are not celebrating St. Patrick's day", Harry mocked back. I was smiling amusedly, waiting for the next comeback but it stopped. My guess, Shirley dived into the conversation on time.

I found Liam fully dressed glaring at me. I explained to him all about our plan and saw him hesitate when I said we are planning it tomorrow. But he gave me a smile trying to hide it.

"What's wrong Liam? I know something is bothering you", I sighed making him sit beside me. Tears started forming at the brim of his eyes.

"It's Cheryl", that's it, that's what I got before he started staring down at the ground. I guess I have to get my hands dirty.

"Did you two fight?", his expression turned angry when I asked.

"That's the problem, Lou. She has stopped fighting, with me or for me. She is not happy with me Lou, I can see that. But she is not saying anything for Bear's sake. And even I am letting her suffer alone because I am too afraid to lose Bear", he sighed and I rubbed his arm to add some comfort to his pain.

"How did you know you had to let Briana go", he asked with so much hurt in his eyes. I never wanted him and Bear to have the same fate as Freddie and me.

"When I knew I was not the right one for her. She deserves so much better Liam. She has gone through a lot for our son, but I knew I had to do that for her. It was not fair to her", I answered with utter honesty.

"It's her birthday tomorrow. She didn't even ask me if I was going when I called her. She has decided I won't.", he half smiled.

I looked into his amber eyes, "Then you should go and prove her wrong. I think she deserves it and also your honesty", I chimed, dragged his arm downstairs. Hush, one down, now the difficult kid next.

Liam was busy preparing the guest list when Shirley cornered me. She looked concerned, which scared me.

"Take Zayn's lunch upstairs, wait until he finishes", she muttered. I nodded but paused.

"Wait, what do you mean.....Are...are you implying that he...?", I couldn't finish the sentence, but she understood.

"He has lost weight drastically. Maybe it's because of the accident, and I pay attention when he eats. He has lost appetite but always ate enough. He has gone through Anorexia once. These are just precautionary measures", she pointed out.

I am so glad that she is here with us. But her words scared me. I was not there for Zayn when he was going through such a worst situation. But if that's the case now, I will stand by him. I will make sure he gets better.

"Zayn, it's me Louis", I knocked not even daring to get in the room this time.

When he called me in, I saw him in front of his mirror with a bare chest. Shirley is right, he has lost a lot of weight, but as she said, and I hope that these are side effects of medicines.

I kept the plate down and he gave me his usual tired smile. "What are you doing?", I questioned. He was weirdly running his hands down his tattoos. He mustn't even remember half of them.

"Louie? Will you answer one question truthfully?", he asked and I forced the plate of brown rice in his hands. How do people even eat this? I gulped and asked him to proceed. Oh god, this never ends well.

"Whose eyes are these", he puzzled pointing at one particular tattoo right on his heart.

"Don't even take Perrie's name. I've had enough. Just tell me, Lou, if I had a girlfriend, do you think it's fair with her? I'm ready to talk with whoever it is", he cried in desperation.

"I can call her tomorrow to a small party that we are planning. Don't worry it's for close family and friends. I think your family would want to see you too", I suggested.

Shirley asked me to convince him about the party, and that's how I do it. Great job Tomlinson. I hope she doesn't kill me for inviting Gigi.

Zayn nodded and handed me the half-eaten plate back. Well, something is better than nothing.

I handed him his meds and walked out. He didn't make any further conversation directing that he wanted me out.

I completely forgot to tell him about the theme of our party. He has to be prepared for it.

But when I returned to his room, I could hear gagging noises. The realization hit me like a truck. I froze on my spot but could not make myself go in.

Instead, I ran downstairs. With each step, my head became dizzy. The fear must be evident on my face cause all three boys looked at me with worry.

My eyes just searched for Shirley. And when they spotted her the only words that escaped my mouth were, "You were right!"

Pretty intense aye? Did you like it? What do you think he will say when he meets Gigi?

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