rEaR vIeW (Amnesia _ I Need Ya)

Chapter 21

Harry's Pov

"What did you just say?", there he was standing at the door with our backs to him. I expected one of us to look at him but none of us dared to turn our heads.

Trisha and Gigi were right behind him. I could hear them talk to him but it was like he couldn't hear them. Shirley realized the situation and stood up with all three of us following her actions.

"Zayn! Listen, sunshine, calm down", Trisha was shaking him softly to get him out of his astounding state. He must be feeling so betrayed. We broke his trust once again.

"Zayn!", Shirley screamed, loud enough for him to look up. His empty eyes filled with anger and before we could comprehend he ran towards Louis, grabbing him by his neck.

All the ruckus dragged everyone up. I didn't want this to happen in front of our families. Zayn would never forgive himself. He blames himself for the things that were out of his control.

I was right beside them so I stepped forward in my drunken state to keep Zayn from snapping my petite friend's nape.

"Stop it Zayn! You're choking him", I tried but he pushed me away easily. He was stronger and sober than me.

Niall was too shocked to even move but we all tried to pull both the boys away from each other.

Gigi was crying hysterically, I think all of us were at the moment. She walked past me to stand right next to Zayn.

I'm really afraid, Zayn is not in his right state of mind and her being so close to him is unarguably dangerous.

"I said leave him! He told the truth. Are you happy now? Yes I am your girlfriend or at least was", Gigi took hold of his arm as she weakly stated.

Zayn felt her touch, I could see the way his eyes changed their colour from dark black to soft brown. He realized what he was doing and left Louis in one go.

I was right on spot to grab my blue-eyed friend. He was coughing desperately and I'm sure I was feeling dizzy.

All we could hear was heavy breathing as we let him calm down. Zayn was staring at Gigi. He had no strength to speak.

Then Shirley scooted closer to the door grabbing Niall by his hand. She is always taking care of him.

"I think we should let them talk alone", she muttered looking at all of us. Without objecting we all walked down.

For how long are we going to do this? It has to end someday. Shirls said he will remember everything slowly.

But he has not remembered anything yet. It was us who let him some information that his mind was not ready to take. What if he never gets his memory back? The thought is horrific and I don't want to think of it.

Louis was trying to calm his younger sisters telling them he was fine. The girls were really scared.

That's the reason I didn't want any of this in front of them. I don't want them to hate Zayn. He doesn't even know what he is doing!

"Do you think it's a good idea to let them talk?", Yaser was worried about his son. He was pacing back and forth while the rest of us were sitting on the sofa in my big hall.

It was still filled with party decoration and drinks. None of us even tried to clean up the mess. Several questions were running down our heads.

"He needs this. Trust me, only Gigi can calm him now. She has been through a lot and he has to appreciate that", the blond doctor answered, still lost in her own thoughts.

Everyone started talking and whispering to pass this horrible time. Except for Niall who was staring into nothingness. He was so afraid when Zayn plunged into Louis. The memory is still scaring me.

Before I could go and talk to him my phone rang. Liam, should I tell him what happened here?

My system was drained of alcohol a long time ago. I tried my best to talk with Liam but my throat was shaking as I tried not to cry.

I was afraid. The intensity of all this is too much. Zayn doesn't have control over his actions and it's scary.

What would have happened if we were not there to hold him back? It took four people to stop him from beating Louis. Is this how they feel when I get angry? Do they fear me? I hate myself for that and ways will.

"I couldn't stop worrying? How did the party go? I'm on my way back", Liam asked with the usual worry in his tone. Only if he knew!

"Everything is fine. We miss you mate. What happened there?", I asked instead. He is already going through a lot. I don't want him to know about it over the phone. He will know when he comes here.

"Oh okay. I talked with Cheryl. I explained to her everything. She shares my opinion. We even announced it on twitter. Of course, I am not holding off from Bear. He will always be my everything", he sounded hoarse and I'm sure was crying.

Why is this happening to us? Can't we have a little happiness in our lives? Is this the prize of fame? If the band never existed there would be no problem for Zayn.

When Liam kept his phone, I walked inside only to find Gigi and Zayn coming down from stairs and everyone staring at them in anticipation. Gigi had tears in her eyes and Zayn's were the same. What must have happened there?

"I'm really sorry Lou. I'm sorry for the way I behaved. I messed it up again. But no more", he came forward and rubbed his eyes harshly.

"I have accepted my fate guys. I have no control over what's happening. But I'll make it better I promise", he noticed Niall's scared and angry gaze and I know it must have made several holes in his heart.

Louis and I gave him a weak smile, I held Louis's hand tight cause I knew it's not that much. Gigi was in hysterics and that only means one thing.

"I'm breaking up with Gigi. She has done enough, you all have done enough for me. I'm letting you all free. Leave me be, I'll be fine with or....or without memory", he cried and without looking down ran upstairs.

He gave up. Just like that. I can't believe after everything we did for him, he asked us to leave. I could see in everyone's eyes that this time we are not going by his ways. We are not leaving him alone.

All these chapters are going to be intense. We are nearing the end. Hope you enjoyed this. Next chapter is going to reveal a lot of things and it's all from an important Pov.

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