if only i had told someone sooner
if only i'd been spared heartbreak
if only i hadn't let them dement me
if only i hadn't let two degrade me
if only they believed me
if only i wasn't a victim
if only my friends had not betrayed me
if only someone were there quicker
if only i hadn't let their words in my ears
if only i hadn't let their sentences infiltrate my brain
if only i didn't believe them
if only i had a self esteem
if only they didn't spit me and spite me
if only i hadn't been such a coward
if only i hadn't been such a cry baby
if only i had been strong enough then
if only i weren't so sad
if only i weren't so angry
if only i hadn't given myself battle scars
if only i hadn't seeked my self worth in others
if only i had been perfect
if only i wasn't called ugly
if only i wasn't called fat
if only i wasn't harassed
if only i was fine
if only i was a happy kid
if only i wasn't bullied
I wouldn't be the person I am today.
