FREAK [Min Yoongi]

Chapter 5 "You'll be sorry"

 ~~ nan sumswigo sipeo i bami silheo. ijen kkaego sipeo kkumsogi silheo. nae ane gathyeoseo nan jugeoisseo. Don't wanna be lonely. Just wanna be yours ~~

This day was very stressful and severe for you. More and more often you felt like weirdo to others. That morning you even had to change a tram because you couldn't have stand staring anymore. You're tired of being something strange and new. You didn't feel like a human anymore. You feel like a damn doll on exhibition. People were staring at you all day without even bothering to hide it. You knew that you'll never feel like in home living here but you didn't expect to be an entertainment. You're talking about this sick situation with other students but they didn't care at all. It's funny for them. But not for you. You're done and you didn't have anyone by your side.

You're on your way to apartment. One thing was cheering you up - tomorrow will be Saturday so you can stay two days at home. Alone. Without any staring and jokes about your race. It's like a prize for you. You're just standing in front of your door, clicking automatic key.

 
"What the hell?" You asked yourself when key didn't unblock door. They're still closed and you had no clue what's wrong with them. You tried once again to unblock them but it didn't work at all. You felt dizzy and your hands started shaking. You slapped yourself in thoughts for not taking room in academician. You wanted to cry and scream because of anger and tiredness. 

"What's wrong with you?" You immediately turned around hearing Yoongi's voice behind your backs. He's wearing black ripped jeans and the same color shirt.
"Could you help me?" He crossed his arms, leaning back against the door frame. Smirk appeared on his face making you want to slap him. Or kill whatever.
"Again? You couldn't have resisted?"
"What are you talking about?"
"Oh come on. Just ask me out and stop acting." He laughed making you feel confused an dumb.
"Are you crazy? It's not my fault that this shit doesn't work."

"Whatever." He took a step forwards you never taking his eyes off you. You felt uncomfortable again but you stayed in a place "Input code." You immediately click right buttons but like before it doesn't work.
"Do you know what to do?"
"No."
"Fuck" You cursed and then you felt like tears're filling your eyes again. You want to sit down on the floor and cry. Cry for hours or maybe even for years. Suddenly you felt someone's hand on your shoulder.

"You can stay with me if you want. I won't let you stay outside." You looked up at him meeting his gaze. His black eyes was searching yours intensively.
"What? I can't. I just-"
"Don't be stupid. You don't have any place where you could stay." You bit your cheek because you knew he's right. Completely right and that's the most upsetting. 

"Thank you. Once again you're saving me." He smirked leaning closer to your face. He stopped when he's close enough, not leaving any space. For you it's too close because you felt his breath on your lips.
"You're my debtor." He whispered and without saying a word, came back to his home leaving you in amazement. "What are you waiting for? Come in."
You moved off entering his house. You followed him to living room because you didn't have any idea what to do. Following him was the most safe decision. He sat down on the couch and turned TV on.
"I don't know how it looks in your country but in Korea we usually sit when we're watching TV." You felt like every part of you cracked in one second. His joke was example why you hate people so much. Why they're disgusting in your eyes. Fact that people don't treat each other with kindness and equality always makes you cry. This time was the same. You felt first tears on your cheeks desperately escaping your eyes. You didn't want to cry in front of him but it's harder than you. 

"You're pathetic and gross. You think this type of jokes is funny? I'm a fucking human like you so why don't you respect me? Am i worse because of my race, religion or country? You know how it is when everyone is staring at you with disgust?" You asked him with anger in your voice. You're able to hurt him but he did you a favor. You could stay at his home so you need to control yourself even if it's difficult to do. He seems touched and guilty. He scratched his neck not looking at you anymore.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to sound offensive. Please sit down and i'll brew a tea for you."

You went weak at the knees. Your whole body was shaking what made you feel even worse. It's reaction on anger and stress. You couldn't have controlled convulsion. You want to escape and hide yourself so that no one could find you. 

"(Y/N) are you ok?" You felt his hand on your shoulder. You want to nod but you couldn't have moved. You're paralyzed.
"Help" You whispered closing your eyes tightly. You didn't know why it's happening again and it makes you feel scared. Yoongi closed you in embrace trying to comfort you somehow.

"Try to calm down. I'm here" You listened him and tried to control your breath. It isn't a piece of cake but you're doing your best. A few moments later you finally stopped trembling. You're still feeling dried tears on your cheeks and clothes. Your mind is empty as always when you have panic attacks. You still don't know why it happens moreover you take a specific pills that should help you in taking a control over your emotions. But they failed.
"I'm fine" your voice's barely hearable and Yoongi's still embracing you. This kind of closeness makes you a bit uncomfortable and honestly there is nothing to make it less awkward.

"I'm sorry once again. I didn't want to make you feel like this."
"I'm fine"
"What was that? Do you usually have convulsion?" He finally looked at you with concern in his eyes.

"It's not a big deal. I don't want to talk about it. Can i go to sleep?"
"Of course. Wait a minute i'll bring you a blanket and pillows" Yoongi left you literally for one minute to return with blanket and two pillows. "You can sleep in my room and i'll be sleeping here"
"No i can sleep here"
"Don't be that stubborn. Go to my room, you must be tired" You let out sigh, standing up. You took from him blanket and pillows.

"Thank you"
"Don't thank me. It's nothing. Goodnight (Y/N). In a pinch just call me out."
"Goodnight"
You entered his bedroom, throwing pillows on the bed. You covered yourself with blanket waiting for sleep. When you almost fall asleep something woke you up.

"Yoongi?" You left his bedroom reaching the living room where he actually is.
"(Y/N)? Why aren't you sleeping?" You saw him sitting on the couch with laptop on his lap.
"I could ask you about the same" You landed next to him, sitting cross-legged.
"I couldn't have slept so I decided to work"
"What are you working on? I heard some sound. What was that?" He scratched his neck avoiding your gaze.
"Um it's nothing important. I'm sorry that i woke you up"
"Your couch is really uncomfortable so i'm not surprised that you couldn't sleep." you mumbled feeling like pain is spreading to every part of your body.

"Maybe you wanna change places?"
"No. Your bed is better"
"I know" He smirked at you licking his lower lip. "Maybe you'll have more chances to be here" 
"I would not. Especially in your bed."
"You're so sensitive princess. Chill."
"Don't call me that. I'm not a little girl"

"I see" He defiantly looked at your breast, giving you a little smirk. This time you want to not even hit him. You want to kill him.
"I'm leaving you pervert" You to stood up when his strong hand grabbed your wrist holding you back.
"You're really too sensitive. I'm joking"
"Your sense of humor is a joke you dumbass."
"Remember that i allowed you to stay with me tonight. In another way you could've lied on a bench in the park"

"You're so gracious. You must be God's favorite" you scoffed, rolling your eyes.
"Maybe God is satisfied with me" he looked at you with his intensive, black eyes sending you shivers. He moved closer to you leaned across your ear. "but i would make someone feels more satisfied" You gulped hearing his words in shock, feeling like your entire face's becoming red. 

You wanted to make him stop and leave you alone. But from the another side you're hypnotized. You aren't able to explain your thoughts. And you don't even want to do that. There is a completely mess in your head and you know about it. It's dangerous. He's dangerous.

"Aren't you too confident and cocky? You're overestimating yourself."
"We can check it out"
"No, we can't."
"Why?" he asked you without any expression. You're blinking intensively because you don't know if he's that stupid or pervert. Or both.
"Are you really asking me about the reason? Maybe because i don't know you? Maybe you're stranger to me? And you can have venereal diseases."
"I don't have any."
"But still i don't know you. Is it that hard to understand?" He's thinking about it for a while until he finally spoke up.

"Ok so let's get to know each other"