choices. // c.g. *2*

Six

"So you're here to have an abortion, correct?" The lady asked me. I nodded.

It had been five days since I told V about me wanting an abortion.

When she finally had me tell Carl and Colin, it was terrible.

3 days earlier...

"Sweetie, you need to tell Carl." V said. "I know you've been trying to avoid him, but it's not gonna be any easier if you don't."

"What about Colin?" I asked. I hadn't slept in two days, so my eyes were extremely droopy and I was exhausted.

"What about Colin? He hasn't been here for me since I told him I was pregnant. So for all I care, he can go fuck himself." I said.

"With you or not, he is still the father of that baby." V said.

"I'm telling Carl first. He's my boyfriend. He deserves to know and I want him to be there when it's done." I said. Carl walked in. V pushed me toward him.

"Where have you been, baby?" He asked, feeling my belly. I pushed his hand away.

"Stop." I said.

"What-What's wrong?" He asked.

"Can we talk outside?" I asked. He nodded and we walked outside. He shut the door.

"What's up?" He asked me.

"When we were at your sisters intervention, V said something to Debbie that got me thinking. And I just realized that I can't have this baby. I'm only 15. I want to go to parties and get drunk. I want to have sex with my boyfriend and not worry about getting knocked up. I want to smoke weed and fuck up without being a mother. I don't mind having a baby when I'm 25, but right now, I'm just not ready to give everything up." I said. "I don't want to be my mom. I don't want 5 other kids with 5 other baby daddies. I'm not going to fuck up my life like her. I love you and I want you to not be afraid to be with me because of my baby." I put my hands on his chest. "You are singlehandedly, the best thing that has ever happened to me. I'm so in love with you that it hurts." I said.

He was silent.

"So, you wanna kill it?" He asked.

"I'm not killing anything." I said.

"Y'know. I just remembered that I had to do something." He said, walking away.

"Carl!" I shouted as he walked away. I walked inside and texted Colin.

I need to talk to you about the baby. Go to Veronica's and Kevin's.

I put my phone in my pocket and waited patiently. 10 minutes passed by and Colin pulled up with a black Range Rover and a new girl. He said something to her, kissed her, and got out of the car.

"New girlfriend, huh?" I asked.

"Yeah. Her name is Melany. She's the best." He said. "She gets that I'm gonna be a dad and have a kid with you." He said, smiling.

"Well she's very pretty." I said.

"Thanks. I tend to have pretty girlfriends." He said, patting my shoulder.

"Anyways, I needed to talk to you." I said.

"What about? Is the baby fine?" He asked.

"Yeah. The baby is great. I just... I don't know if I can continue with it." I said.

"What? What the fuck are you talking about?" He asked, laughing.

"I'm getting an abortion." I said.

"Isabel, if you get an abortion, I will never speak to you, ever again."

"Colin, I thought that you of all people would understand!" I told him.

"No, I don't understand this, Isabel. You were so happy." He said.

"I'm not. I'm 15. I want a teenage-hood." I said. "I can't do that with a baby." I said.

"Fine. Do what you want. I'm done with your bullshit drama." He said, getting in the car and driving away. I sat on the curb, emotionless.

Present day...

"How old are you, Sweetie?" The doctor asked.

"I'm 15." I said.

"Parent or guardian?" She asked.

"Me." Veronica told her.

She went over everything that I needed to know about the abortion. It was finally time.

45 minutes later...

I walked out. I saw V and gave her a hug.

"Thank you so much." I said through tears.

"There's someone else here to see you." V said. She pulled away.

"Carl?"

"And me." I heard Colin's voice say.

"What are you two doing here?" I asked.

"I'm your boyfriend and he was the father. We were dicks to you and I'm sorry." Carl said to me.

"It's fine. You both played an important role in this. But I needed you two by my side. Sure, V was here, but I had to do this all alone. Without the two main people. So just leave me alone." I said, walking out. Carl ran after me.

"Baby! Wait!" He shouted as I walked out. Tears fell down my face and I turned around.

"I needed you, Carl. I thought that maybe for fucking once, you'd be there for me like I've been there for you." I told him through gritted teeth.

"You've been there for me maybe fucking twice! Don't say I've never been there for you when that's all I've been doing, Isabel! The times you cheated on me, the times you fucked Colin, the time you got beat the hell up! I was there for you! Yes, I sold drugs, but I brought fucking money into the house that you live in! The last time I fucking noticed, you haven't done shit to help this family since you moved in! All you do is watch Liam and get pregnant!" He shouted at me.

Then the last thing he said... broke me.

"Maybe that's all you're fucking good for. Just like your mom." He said, walking away from me.