westallen one shots

break up

( this is something different, but I really hope you like it.)

       Barry sat in his apartment alone. It had been about 3 months since him and Iris broke up. He never wanted to. He felt like he had to. He didn't want to see her get hurt by anyone who wanted to hurt Barry.
     When Barry saw Iris around her dad, she seamed okay, but he wasn't. He either stayed in his lab, or he ran around star labs. He dreaded staying still long enough for himself to think about her.
    A nock from his door caused him to jump. He walked over slowly to answer it. Cisco stood at the door holding a pint of ice cream and some movies.
    "You look like shit." Cisco said.
    "Hello to you too Cisco." Barry said sarcastically. Cisco walked quickly inside as Barry closed the door.
      "When was the last time you showered?" He said.
       "I don't remember" Barry said, plopping himself on the couch.
       "Barry, dude. You need to get over it. It's been months!" Cisco said.
      "You don't just get over loving someone Cisco!" Barry scoffed. "I loved her my hole life. And when I finally have her for myself, I have to get rid of her. An I understand it was for her own good, but I want to be with her still. I want to see her smile at me. I want her to laugh at my jokes. Even if it's one more time, I'd want her to talk to me again. But I doubt that will happen. She's pissed at me." Barry said.
    "I came here to cheer you up, but I think you need to do that for yourself." Cisco said.
     "What do you mean?" Barry said, sitting up slightly.
     "Go talk to her! But word of advice first. Take a shower, you smell like a rat threw up on a garbage pile." Cisco said.
    "Dude I cant!" Barry said.
    "You better, I don't think she'd talk to you if you don't shower." Cisco said.
     "That's not what I mean. I can't talk to her! What would I say? 'Hey I will love you but we can't be together because I don't want to see you die?' that sounds so Stupid!" Barry said.
    "Just think about it Barry." Cisco said before getting up and walking out.
     Barry picked up his phone and looked at the pictures he had with Iris. Thoughts raced through his head. If he did tell Iris how he felt, how would she react? There was only one way to find out.

                   ---Time gap---

     Barry paced around his apartment awkwardly. He invited Iris over to talk. Barry had never been so nervous in his entire life. His hands shook and he couldn't stop moving. He jumped wen he heard a nock on the door.
   "Alright Barry. Your just gonna talk. That's it, that's not that hard. Right?" Barry mummbled to himself as he walked twords the door. When he opened it, Iris smiled at him. Barry couldn't help but stare, he missed that Smile.
   "U-um, come in." He said, moving so Iris could walk in. When she did, Barry's heart began to race faster than before. His hands were sweaty and his breathing was fast.
    "I-im glad you wanted to talk." Iris said, as she sat down on the couch with Barry. "Us breaking up came out of no where."
    "Yeah. I didn't really want to..." Barry said, scratching his neck.
    "Then why did we?" Iris asked. Barry was silent for a moment. Afraid of what he had to say.
     "I- I -" he tried to say something, but  he couldn't.
   Just say it! Tell her you were scared!
  Barry's thoughts raced through his head.
   But if you tell her, she'll think your a coward!
   "Barry. You can tell me." Iris said, placing her hand on Barry's knee. That was also something Barry missed. Her touch. No matter where it was, he needed it.
     Barry's eyes began to tear up. He felt himself shaking in fear. He couldn't tell her.
    "Barry, if you can't tell me, we can fix it" Iris said. She was right. If Barry didn't tell her how he felt, he couldn't fix what was going on.
   "I was scared." Barry said quietly.
   "What?" Iris said, her thumb stroked up and down his knee.
     "I- I was scared." Barry said slightly louder. "I was scared that I would loose you. Not like I was with salvitar, but worse. I didn't want to put you through something like that again." Barry said, tears now streaming down his face.
     "Barry, I can hold my own. I know you know this." She said, movibg her hand to hold Barry's.
     "But what if you cant? What if I can't save you and you actually die?" Barry said, whipping some tears off of his face.
     "Barry, I'm know for a fact your fast enough to save me. You've done it many times." Iris said, her free hand cupping Barry's face so he would look at him.
    "I wasn't fast enough to stop reverse flash. That was Eddie. I had help to defeat zoom, salvitar killed HR. I can't have that happen to you. I won't let that happen!" Barry said.
    "Barry, it wont." Iris said sternly. She smiled at Barry, hopping he would smile back. Barry didn't though. He couldn't. He couldn't look is in the eye right now with how he had treated her.
   "I love you." Iris said. She kissed him gently. He looked up a her confused.
    "A horrible desicion really." Barry chuckled slightly.
    "I don't think so." Iris said, chuckling with him. Barry kissed her this time.
    "I love you too."