Diary Of An Undercovered Bisexual - All The Boys I Secretly Fell In Love With

Entry #9

Dear Diary,

Prepare for the next few enteries to be Elijah show, because I think that I've fallen in love with him. Like, for real.

I have never said his real name. I'm scared of saying it. Yesterday I made my friend guess who my crush is (it took him a while) because I couldn't bring myself to say his name.

I guess that I feel like, if I say his name I'll lose him in some way. He won't be my little secret anymore.

Or even worse, I'll stiop loving him. I was always the kind of person to move on quickly, forget people. I don't wanna do that with him. I love loving him and I don't want that to go away.

So yeah, now I'm gonna pray to God to send him to me. Honestly, I think that I deserve it.

Let's talk abaout religion for a bit, it's one of my favourite topics.

Look, the thing is, I am not religious, but I am not really an atheist. I believe there is a God. I just don't think that religions picture it the right way. I don't have anything against religions or religious people, but I have my own beliefs.

I pray a lot. I talk to God a lot. But it's rarely for things that I want. I don't know, I just find it kind of selfish to turn to God when you need something. It's like a person thing, right, nobody likes those who are there only when they need something.

I usually pray for people all together, for health and luck, I guess that we all could use those.

Not going to lie, obviously there was a few times I asked God for something just for me, but that doesn't happen often.

With Elijah, it will.