Appa

She was not fragile like a flower, she's fragile like a bomb.

1 and a half weeks later...

"LET ME GO!!! I SAID LET ME GO DAMMIT!!!" Jin held my arms behind my back and held me from going out the front door. "It's been five years and she's just now seeing her father for the first time!!! Leave her be Jeon Se Young!!" I shook my head and tried running forward but no such luck.

"IT'S BEEN FIVE YEARS AND I HAVEN'T SEEN MY DAUGHTER!!! HE'S HAD PLENTY OF TIME WITH HER!!!" Jin rolled his eyes and sighed. "It's only been about two weeks!!!" "SAME FUCKING THING NOW LET ME GO!!!" Tears began to form in the corners of my eyes.

My body instantly relaxed, I turned to jello. I fell to my knees. "Not seeing my baby makes me worry...oppa...what if something's happened to her...something bad...?" Jin sighed and bent down, wrapping his arms tightly around me and hugging onto me. He rested his head on top of mine. "Nothing's happened to her, she's called you every day off of her dad's phone. She's fine. Yah, you can't even talk properly from how poorly you've been taking care of yourself..." I shrugged like what he said was nothing. Because that's what it was, was nothing.

"I just want to have a conversation with her...just see her. Hearing her voice isn't enough. I'm a mother dammit!!! She's my first born!!!" "I understand that but he's a father, it's his first born child too!! He hasn't gotten to see her at all except for now." "We didn't even know about each other!! If he wanted this kind of life, he should've accepted the consequences!!!" Jin's heart broke at how cruel I was being.

He let go of me, I made a run for the front door and ran outside. I jumped into car and drove away.

Jin has never, in all his years of being alive, seen me like this. He understood my side....but he understood Hyungwon's side more so than mine. He understood my social anxiety but didn't understand why I was attacking Hyungwon when he's done nothing.

Maybe because he's a guy...

Aish...I thought he was my best friend!!!

Guess not do much anymore...

As I was driving...the more I thought about what Jin said. His words always leave deep scars inside of me and outside. My right hand was on the steering wheel while my left elbow was propped up on the car door. I had the tip of my middle finger in my mouth, I was biting on the nail part.

I didn't even know where I was driving to...I was just driving around, trying to think because my mind has been clogged up.

I don't mind sharing Hwang with her father...but...ugh...I don't know. I just have an off feeling about him. Maybe I'm just overreacting.

"Ah!!!" I groaned. My right hand flung to the side of my head, my left hand took control of the wheel. I mentally slapped myself...but it hurt...?

"Ugh!!!" I sighed and switched hands again, my left elbow was propped up on the door again and my middle finger was in my mouth, I was chomping down on my nail while o drove with my right hand.

"This is stupid..." I sighed out. "Everything's so fucking stupid!!!" I scowled. I stepped on the gas and began to drive around even faster. I was driving wherever my mind took me and that was an empty, abandoned field.

I drove in fast, irregular circles around the field. I was taking my anger and frustration out on driving. I changed the gears like crazy and waisted no time turning sharp corners.

"IF HE THINKS THAT HE CAN THAT HE CAN HAVE THE LITTLE GIRL I PUSHED OUT OF MY FUCKING VIRGIN PUSSY THAN HE HAS ANKTHER THING COMING!!!" I switched the gears quickly, turning another sharp turn. "THAT FUCKING ALIEN'S BEING STINGY!!!" but maybe I am... I rolled my eyes at the thought. "I HAVE BEEM IN HER LIFE SINCE DAY 1, SHE'S ALWAYS HAD ME AND NOW SHE'S BETRAYED ME AND TRADED ME OUT FOR A GUY...A GUY WHO'S FUCKING DOG ON RETARDED!!!" I switched the gears and turned another sharp turn.