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Death please be near!!

I woke up, raindrops were dripping onto me, from the roof. The whole hammock was soaked. I felt like a kid again...whenever I'd wet the bed and it would be so uncomfortable to move because you're completely soaked in that one area and moving to a dry area, just to feel the cold brush up against you made things worse...

Well...that's what this felt like...except I was soaked everywhere.

I coughed lightly....but that cough led to a whole hell lot of another ones!!! 

I leaned over to side of the hammock and ended up puking. I leaned over too far that I fell in my own vomit. I was trembling in fear and freezing to death. I bowed my head and began to cry. My left arm was propped up, keeping me up from falling into the vomit even more.

I reaked... I needed to take a shower...but I didn't want to.

All that was on my mind was death, I wanted to borrow a knife from the kitchen. Being around this sick environment makes me ill.

The back door opened, Hwang saw me and freaked out all over again. She rushed to my side, she hugged me tightly...even though I was covered in my own remains.

Hyungwon walked downstairs and was walking towards the kitchen...until he saw me. He slowed down his walking and took a closer look, noticing his daughter who just took a shower.

He sighed and slammed his newspaper down on the counter, he shoved the rest of his donut down his throat and chewed it quickly, swallowing hard.

He walked outside and yelled at Hwang to get inside and take another shower but she never left my side. "No!!! I hate how you're treating my mother!!! Why can't you two just get along?!" Hwang Shin Young took the more adult role while we were acting like children.

Hyungwon scoffed and looked away, his hands were placed on his hips. My head was still bowed, I sat up straight and held out my arms to Hyungwon. He saw my movements in the corner of his eyes and looked towards me.

"Please...I know we won't ever get along...so take the knife in your kitchen and end me..." his eyes widened, they began to water from what I was saying. Hwang didn't understand what I was saying, she heard me but didn't understand what that meant.

"Hwang Shin Young, go inside!!!" Hyungwon demanded, she refused but he raised his voice and she caved. "Okay..." she sighed out, bowing her head and walking inside. "Go take another shower, any vomit you get on the floor. Just...judt clean it up..." he sighed out. "Yes sir..." she closed the door behind her and walked up the stairs, stripping her clothes the closer she got to the bathroom. So while she walked, an article of clothing came off.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?!" Hyungwon growled, taking a step towards me. He looked...angry...but why? "You don't care...so just please...end my suffering..." he scoffed. ""Your suffering"?!" He imitated me.

"YAH, I'M THE ONE SUFFERING, HAVING TO PUT UP WITH YOU!!! YOU'RE GIVING ME SHIT ABOUT WANTING TO SEE MY DAUGHTTER AND YOU'VE BEEN GIVING ME SHIT SINCE DAY 1!!! WHAT HAVE I DONE TO YOU?!" he shouted, his eyes watering. His face was red, the veins in his neck and forehead were becoming visible.

"You did nothing wrong but want to be there...I just...I'm angry..." "Why?! WHY?! BECAUSE I LOVE MY OWN BLOOD?! Or because you don't want me being around my daughter, am I a rapist?! What am I to you?! What makes you think you can call me out for doing nothing?!" I guess...I guess I really messed up.